I'm Yours To Keep ;;

Saviour,

2012-02-09T10:50:00.002+08:00

For the second time,

2011-12-24T23:33:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah, since I got to know him, this is the second time I went to his gig. Yeahhhh eventho I'm not really into it but for him, I go for it. I just wanna give him and his band support :)

Kalau sebelum ni pergi Kuantan, okay kali ni dekat sikit, Putrajaya for Putrajaya Youth Day Out 2011. Yeah I went there with Ieda and Fisz. Sampai awal, so lepak lepak dulu. And like usual, janji melayu, gig tak pernah start on time. And and paling palat bila E4D kena buat opening. Aku dengan Ieda mencarut carut dah tu kat bawah. Nasib tempat okay. Aircond and carpet yaw! Okay la. Hah last last E4D pun buat la opening. Nasib everything went well. Sumpah, alhamdulillah :) Nasib crowd support! Jyeahhh!

They did performed 4 songs, Last Taste --> Restraint --> Carrion anddddddddddddd Vindictive. Huahua kerja aku meng-record je. Lenguh tangan... :( E4D, jangan nak cakap aku record video static lagi! Aku dah siap record crowd lagi. Hahaha. Jangan nak complain complain lagi! Whatever it is, you guys did a great job Eroc For Dynamic! (Y)

* Eroc 4 Dynamic's 2nd guitar ♥

700th posts!

2011-12-18T23:19:00.004+08:00

Hehe after three weeks! Jyeahhh at last we met. Huahua. Walaupun sekejap, at least he came all the way from PJ to Pilah to meet me hehe. Ya la, nanti dia perform dekat Putrajaya, I cant attend. Lepas ni dia busy LI, starting from tomorrow. Ahhh thanks for coming, thanks for the necklace, thanks for the new perfume's smell hehe. I'll try my best to come on 24th at Putrajaya to see like how I went to Kuantan to see you perform :) Thank you so much for making time for me!

Mellow day,

2011-12-16T15:29:00.002+08:00

1.Who’s the last person you talked to about sex?

- Seriously forgot.

2.Have you ever sat in the back of a police car?

- Nope.

3.Are you stubborn?
- Fucking yes.

4.If you took a drug test right now, would you pass?

- Obviously.

5.Who was the last person to be on a bed with you?
- Syewa.

6.Do you tend to hold a grudge?
- I am.

7.Who is the last person that pissed you off?
- Someone.

8.Whats something that bothers you about girls?
- So many things.

9.What’s a fact about the last person that texted you?
- Boyfriend, bestfriend, brother.

10.Who sits in behind you in your math class?
- Last time was Ida.

11.Where is the biggest scar on your body?
- On my right hand, accident!

12.Have you ever been told you were amazing?
- Yeah, but dont believe it.

13.Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?

- I did before, and I feel stupid.

14.When was the last time you fought with your parents?
- Ages ago.

15.What was the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
- I dont drinks.

16.What would your last name be if you married the last person you texted?
- Lol! We dont have any last name in Islam.

17.Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
Absolutely.

18.Who was the last person to play with your hair?
- Heh? Lama dah orang tak main rambut aku ni.

19.Do you get along with girls?

- At times.

20.Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
- It was Mama, I'm pretty sure she does!

21.Who was the last person you kissed on the cheek?

- Heh? Mama?

22.Who are your last 4 txts from?
- Twitter

23.Who was the last girl you talked to?
- Syewa

24.Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
- Nope

25.Would you ever get plastic surgery?
- No thanks! Haram!

26.Do you speak any other languages other than English?

- Malay :)

27.What was the last lie you told your mother?
- Heh? Lupa la.

28.Have you ever had to call the cops on someone?
- Nope.

29.What was the last compliment you received?

- I'm fat.

30.Have you talked to a bitch today?
- Nope.

31.Are your parents divorced?
- No.

32.Have you had sex today?
- Sex with my bed, yes.

33.Do you judge people you don’t know?
- Sometimes I do, sorry.

34.Are you a bad influence?
- I guess?

35.Is there anyone that’s in love with you right now?

- I hope he does.

36.Would you ever live with any of your best friends?
- YES!

37.How many people in your life have you kissed?
- Lol!

38.Are you photogenic?
- I dont think so!!!

39.Does anyone know a really deep and dark secret about you?

- No one.

40.Do you use birth control pills?
- Derrr, I'm not even married yet.

41.When was the last time you went to a funeral?

- Last year. My first and last funeral that I even attend.

42.Has one of your boyfriends best friends ever tried to get with you?
- Yes. But friend remains friend.

43.What do you receive the most compliments on?

- About my eyebrows I guess?

44.Do you currently owe anyone money?
- I dont think so?

45.Would you ever marry anyone for their money?

- I never get married.

46.Do you usually have a lot of drama in your life?
- I saw a lot of dramas EVERYDAY.

47.Who do you think is the most attractive actor?
- Heh?

48.How old is the last person you kissed on the lips?
- Huahuahua!

49.Have you ever walked away from someone who was yelling at you?
- YES, I HATE PEOPLE YELLING AT ME!!!

50.Are you 100% over the last person you kissed?
- No

51.What’s one thing you don’t like about yourself?
- Malas

52.Have you told anyone that you missed them lately?

- Yes

It's been awhile,

2011-12-07T01:02:00.003+08:00

Lama sangat tak update blog, so lifeless. Too much to share but entah, malas gila nak tulis.

The starting of the new sem is not good. At all. dah tiga minggu and still, I dont want to mention it here. Let me keep it to myself. InsyaAllah everything gonna be alright. I hope so. Feels like just delete this blog, but I love this blog. So much. This is the place where I share almost everything that happened in my life. Its like a diary to me somehow. In fact, tumblr pun dah malas gilaaaa nak update. Facebook tu hari hari on, tapi setakat reply orang haha. Lawak doh, facebook tu pun rasa macam nak de-activate je. All those social networks on net banyak padah dari manfaat. I realised that. No doubt.

Call me lame cause eventho balik everyweek but still haven't watch Breaking Dawn and Ombak Rindu. zZzz. Oh btw, I make up my mind to just watch Breaking Dawn on net since in cinema they cut so many scenes. I hate that. No good!

*Kak Long and Kak Ngah's wedding

Kak Long and Kak Ngah's wedding was the best cousin's wedding so far. Congrats for both! And I envy both! Kak Long kahwin dengan pilot while Kak Ngah kahwin dengan doctor, omgggg :O Jealousssssss much. Its okay, soon I'm gonna married my engineer! Hahaha budget gila doh! InsyaAllah. Amin!

*Soon, my IR.

Kotak hati #np

2011-10-15T00:30:00.002+08:00

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

- Deep in my heart says he did.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

- I'm 18 and I'm dating with DD now.

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

- Every single day I'm shufflin' hahaha.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

- Depends. Well, I dont smile much.

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

- Ask his ex, HA-HA

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

- With ur love! Haha I'm addicted to that song now.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

- His Arsenal's jersey and stripes pants.

8. How often do you listen to music?

- You cant count it.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

- Both. But you should give me boxer as an option too haha.

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?

- I'm not sure.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

- Socialist, tapi masih ada batas.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

- Alya, that's ma bestfriend, ma foreverlove.

13. What about ‘R’?

- Razana, ma mom.

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

- I've no idea what you're talking about.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

- People will say anything they want even we try to keep their mouth shut.

16. Are you going out of town soon?

- Not sure.

17. When was the last time you cried?

- When I was sick, last monday, last week.

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

- I will tell them when I meant it.

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

- Black, always.

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

- If he deserve it.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

- Nothing! Okay ada, my jari tersepit pintu kereta Zai.

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

- Very!:)

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

- The last person I talk to through phone was Alya, and face-to-face was Fyka so yeah I'm dating them ahah.

24. What are you sitting on right now?

- Chair.

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

- Boyfriend.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

- Yes. Yes. Yes. Can I have Kamal Adli? Kay I'm joking.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

- My boyfriend, we talk till I fall asleep. Everyday pun macam tu -_-"

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

- Most of the time.

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

- DD's.

30. Does anyone hate you?

- Yes, and thank you :)

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

- I'm clean.

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

- No, bye!

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

- Not at all.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

- Last year, it sucks man.

35. Did you have a dream last night?

- I can't remember.

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

- Before I sleep just now.

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

- 9 years in future, my plan. InsyaAllah.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

- I hope it's from my boyfriend.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

- I hope he does.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

- I diddd :)

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

- Yesss <3

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

- I think, yes.

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

- Yesterday, last night.

44. What’s the best part about school?

- Recess, playtime.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

- I do.

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

- Yes yes.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

- I did!

48. Were you single over the last summer?

- I always have summer in Malaysia.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

- Nah, it's totally different.

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

- I've no idea. At this time usually I'm on my bed already, otp haha.

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

- I love him.

52. Are you nice to everyone?

- To the chosen one, yes.

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

- Yes. my current one.

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

- Why not? :)

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

- No, sorry.

56. Do you think you like someone?

- I don't just like, I love.

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?

- Nope.

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

- The boys, I dont know why. So don't blame if I lepak with guys a lot.

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?

- I cry easily.

60. Do you hate anyone?

- Yes. Okay I don't hate, I just don't like. Wtv.

61. How’s your heart?

- Doing great!

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

- Yes!

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?

- Yes, stupid.

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?

- Don't bother them.

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

- Nope.

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

- Nope, I hope so.

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?

- Nahhh!

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

-Nopee. Thank god.

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

- Alya.

70. How do you look right now?

- Come and check on me.

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

- Yes.

72. Can you commit to one person?

- Yes yes.

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

- The boyfriend, who else?

74. Have you ever felt replaced?

- Yes! Like now, sometimes. Okay FML.

75. Did you wake up cranky?

- Sometimes.

76. Are you a jealous person?

- I-AM.

77. Are relationships ever worth it?

- Yeah but depends with who.

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?

- Life. Sometimes.

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?

- Boyf, hehe and friendssssssssss!

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

- Sambut daddy balik from Japan.

81. Last person you cried in front of?

- Ieda Mazlan hehe.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

- Yes.

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?

- Yes.

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

- Look at the moon, counting the stars.

85. Are you over your past?

- Well, yeah!

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

- Nope, friends remains friends. Always.

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

- YES! My bestfriend and boyf.

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

- No, we're done. *close the door back*

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

- Hewhew :D

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

- Yes and I ignored what they said end up, I feel so fuck up.

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?

- I'm hoping that we'll still together.

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

- Michael Jackson.

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?

- Nooo.

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

- Nope! Single bebeh!

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

- I started with him on March and yeah I'm happy, even till now.

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

- My boyf, yes :)

97. Who do you have texts from?

- Last was from boyf.

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

- *speechless*

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

- Yes.

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?

- Fb; My, myself and I. Twitter; me and love.

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?

- I wish.

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

- Yes.

Reward!

2011-10-15T00:12:00.002+08:00

Semalam jumpa DD sebab sebulan tak jumpa, so lepak lepak pergi makan cendol and laksa bawah pokok. Mula mula dapat surprise lagi. Konon tak nak balik, merajuk. Hehe tiba tiba pagi buka pintu dia dah ada depan rumah. Oh yeah oh yeah :D Thankiew :-*

Dengan tak mandi nya jumpa hewhew. Takpe, wangi jugekk haha. Then dapat present! Okay bukan present, surprise je. Hehe apa ada dalam paper bag topshop tu? Rahsiaaaaaaaa :P

So today, I got reward for last week. Last week sakit teruk, so I told him if me makan ubat on the right time, dia kena belanja tutti frutti. So yeayyyyyyyy dapat juga :D

Thanks again love :-* :-* :-*

Me and myu cousin, Fyka Shahrom!

Me and DD. *my tummy look damn fat, i loike (Y)

Movies !

2011-09-18T21:42:00.002+08:00

I wanna watch them;

- Change Up; 6th October 2011

-In Tim e; 27th October 2011

- Twilight Saga; Breaking Dawn part I; 24th Nov 2011

- New Year's Eve; 8th Dec 2011

- Footloose; 5th Jan 2012

- Premium Rush; 2nd Feb 2012

Dating week,

2011-09-18T21:04:00.005+08:00

It's supposed to be my study week, tapi bila aku balik, tak pernah kalau si DD pun tak balik. Merana dia dekat Dungun tengok aku ada dekat Shah Alam. Manja DD ni, ish ish. Aku balik selasa, Rabu terus gemuk ni balik. Wehoo! Khamis jumpa, jumaat jumpa, sabtu before aku balik pun jumpa lagi ngeh ngeh :D

Jumaat pergi Sg Buloh openhouse si @fykafykk dengan DD. Tu diaaaaa, nenek aku pun ada. Masak masak. Malam openhouse rumah aku pun DD ada, and againnnnnn nenek aku pun ada lagi. Masak lagi masak. Hahaha nasib Nenek rilex jerwwww. Haha the next morning before aku balik Pilah, DD datang breakfast rumah. Yeayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :D

Study week bukan study week, jadi dating week. Haha buku tak dating pun, asyik dengan dating dengan DD je ahah. Apa nak jadi ni. Ish ish haha. Wish me luck guys for my final! #kchowwwwww

* Muka sengget dating dengan CTU the whole day. Thank you DD for the sweater!

Two weeks.

2011-09-15T22:19:00.003+08:00

Even though I'm acting like a stranger to you last week, but you know that Ilebiu. Hehe. We had a blast today. Thank you Gemuk Boroi. Hehe.

He said: This is us after didnt meet for two weeks. Hehe.

Boyf,

2011-09-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

Rempit double-stand motor.

I love you thru thick and thin.

Surprised from love,

2011-09-05T16:45:00.003+08:00

Someone told me that he's waiting fro this post :P Haha sibuk tu nak orang cerita pasal dia on blog. HAHAHA kay kay kidding, baby kidding haha.

Hari Isnin balik kampung, raya raya raya makan makan makan macam nak mampos sampai perut rasa nak meletup. Dah puas, Jumaat balik Shah Alam. Poyo gerak dari kampung pukul 10. Lepas tu singgah Raub, singgah Bentong la pahalinggggg lama. Pergi bank, pergi makan, pergi rumah @fadhliNOOB haha. Lepak sampai aku sempat tertidur depan tv tengok The Incredible. Fave aku tu. Jangan main main. So around 4 baru kitorang gerak dari Bentong. So around 5++ dah sampai Shah Alam. Once I get home, text Asri since dia dah berhari hari call kata nak datang raya, nak jumpa. Haha direct after text dia, dia terus call kata dia otw. Cehhh 10mins macam tu dah sampai. Hebat abang Saujana sorang ni. Hahaha. Dah la on the way balik Shah Alam ada orang kena tipu, not only DD, but Durra Farah Esther pun kena tipu. Muahaha.

Turun kereta terus tengok mailbox, bapak sedih nya tengok mailbox kosong. Padahal someone has promise me kad raya :'( So after Asri datang pick up me, keluar jap, lepak dengan Asri and his friend dekat mamak then tiba tiba Yaya call suruh teman dia pergi Tesco. Dia nak makan JM Beriyani. Haha ya la, teman kan je la. Asri and his friend, naik kereta lain escort kitorang haha. Then dah siap beli semua, kitorang pun berpecah. Malas nak ikut Asri pergi Ampang. Sesak sesakkk -_-" Then in the night sepatutnya, sepatutnya laaaaaa nak pergi rumah DD. Lepak rumah DD. Last last cancel. Our last chance to meet, burn just liddat. You know how I feel. Sedih kot T.T Bila lagi nak jumpa, I dunwan to go back during final, so we only have two.

Kay malam tu dah sedih dah sebab tak dapat keluar, kennot go out to meet him. Alolololo, diam kan je. Nak dijadikan cerita, malam tu ada orang buat surprised for me :) Konon konon suruh cari kan earphone dia yang tertinggal dekat rumah. Padahal dah bagitau dah tak ada. Degil. Then he asked me to check outside the house. So aku pun lurus, keluar la rumah. Tengok tengok dekat batu atas pagar ada tiga benda. Tiga bendaaaaaaa; bubur mcd, do do do the dew and kad raya. Hehe okay, ambil bawa masuk dalam. Marah orang yang bagi tu sebab tak nak jumpa aku, call Durra sebab call Alya tak angkat. Nangis nangis semua then 10mins after that orang yang buat surprised to pun sampai. And it's my DD! Yeayyy dapat jumpaa gemuk!

So jumpa jap, lepak lepak lepak borak borak borak snap pic snap pic snap pic upload dekat twitter upload dekat twitter upload dekat twitter peluk cium peluk cium peluk cium then we make our own way. Dia balik, and me masuk rumah. Thanks a lot gemuk for the surprisedddddd! Iloveyouuuuuu :-* Sorry menyusahkan datang padahal on that time you demam. Thank you so much. No one ever treat me like this before :') Dekat kad raya tu siap dapat duit raya ehhh. Comel tak comel la kan boyf aku. Hahaha. Thank you again! Thank you!

Seminggu cuti macam macam dapat from him. Jersey, singlet, kad raya, bubur, do do do the dew and the most I appreciate is his time for me :) Thank you love.

* Pic one the night!

P/s: We're Belieber, baju raya warna purplezZzz. Ahaha waklu Belieber. Terjun bangunan aku.

This is specially made for you perepmuan :)

2011-09-04T20:37:00.000+08:00

In this life, kita tak boleh nak percaya dengan apa orang cakap dekat kita. Usah ditelan bulat-bulat apa orang cakap, apa orang beri. Belajar tu. Mudah je benda ni, tapi kita sebagai manusia. Biasa la manusia, orang cakap apa kita percaya je. Aku dah belajar, aku pun dungu juga dulu. Percaya bulat-bulat apa orang cakap. Call me lurus bendul, because sometimes aku memang macam tu.

Jujur cakap, tahun ni, tahun 2011 dah ajar aku macam macam. Mostly,tentang peoples around me. Yang hipokrit, yang jujur, yang kaki kencing, yang tikam belakang, yang pentingkan diri dan lain-lain. Semua aku dah nampak. Tak payah pergi jauh tengok drama, tengok wayang dekat cinema habis duit untuk tengok semua benda benda tu. Cukup dengan kau pandang sekeliling kau.

Mula tabur macam macam dekat aku. Itu ini itu ini, aku pun jadi macam pak turut. Iya kan aje, tunduk kan saja, turutkan saja. Haha akhirnya? Ya la tu, betul la tu kau tahu semua benda. Kau tahu luar dalam atas bawah, inifiniti hidup ni kau tahu. Tapi aku nak tahu sama ada kau tahu apa itu karma. Tahu apa itu karma? Pernah dengar “what goes around, comes around”? Haha aku rasa kau tahu, sebab tak silap aku, kau pernah ucap benda tu dekat aku dulu.

Sekarang, aku nak tengok benda itu jadi dekat kau balik. Dekat kau yang sungguh bijak dalam menutur bicara, mencurah nasihat tanpa henti. Dulu punya nasihat macam macam, “just go on with your life babe, tinggalkan je dia!”. Well, memang aku dah tinggalkan zaman jahiliyah aku. What about you? Masih sangkut dalam dunia ciptaan kau ke? Dunia yang kau tahu sendiri buruk baik nya. Ya la, kau juga yang bagi nasihat dekat aku. For sure kau dah lalu dulu zaman jahiliyah aku tu. But I’m so surprised you still stuck in that dark world. Haha beringat la dik, life is too short. Bak kata pepatah kau, “jangan sampai jilat ludah sendiri!” HA-HA. Aku nampak kau dah jilat balik lidah kau.

Buat hati manis, tahniah. Aku suka tengok kau dalam zaman jahiliyah kau. HA-HA. Don’t ruin your future. Itu nasihat aku. Sekarang dah raya, aku tak ada terima apa apa kata maaf dari kau. Muahaha kalau kau minta maaf pun, aku masih berkira-kira nak terima atau tidak kata kata maaf kau. Boleh percaya ke kata kata dusta kau? Ingat, exam kau dah semakin hampir. Usah terlalu asyik, jangan menyesal macam mana aku menyesal dulu. But yeah, you choose this way so why should I bother right? It’s your life. Haha good luck in your life, usah menyesal dikemudian hari (:

26th August 2011,

2011-08-27T00:24:00.004+08:00

Hoo yeah! I met DD, again. After two weeks. And we planned for break-fasting together. And yeah! We did it :D He accompanied for shopping, kay he choose all the things that I bought today. The kemeja, the ACDC tee (his fave) and the super skinny jeans (Y) Oh yeahhh!

After done with the little shopping, window shopping for his Macbeth, Vans and what-so-ever, it's time for break-fastinggggggggggggg! Because of I dont want to have fast-food we he decide to eat at Ayam Penyet. But too bad, it's already full-house. Haha so we went to Goergtown something something. I forgot the name actually. The food was okay and I think the price was okayyyyy too! And bought pretzel stix with choc dips to for me right after the break-fasting. Tehee :D

Some random pictures for today;

Ze foooooooooooood! And we add Char Kueh Teow too. Perut gajah masing masing.

The accompany.

*You really need a haircut boy.

MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! With ze foods (Y)

End of the day.

End of the day II.

Oh yeah, got Arsenal's jersey and green singlet from DD. And a tee and choc from Alya :)

Thanks love for today. Thank God for today.

For you,

2011-08-23T18:46:00.000+08:00

CIRCLED ONE

A guy,

2011-08-23T13:06:00.001+08:00

He's a guy, I fall for him and he's my guy.

Sorry,

2011-08-23T12:39:00.001+08:00

Sorry for making your August bad.

This is ...

2011-08-19T01:11:00.002+08:00

This two weeks before Raya is just a hectic weeks for me. Wanna know why? You're pleasure to view picture down here. The first picture.

This is my schedule for the two weeks. Done with the first hectic week! Done with three test. And three more test to go and two more quiz. Do pray for me. Uhuk uhuk, I'm dyingggg...

And this is my final exam timetable. Oh yeah dah keluar, and gap semua macam haram. Tak nak jauh jauh lagi. Yang last paper tu ajak aku bergaduh, ish ish. Kenapa la mesti betul betul hari sebelum sem break? Saja menyeksa jiwa dan raga aku kan? :'( Kecewa nya saya... Hahah okay I've no idea what I'm mumbling now.

I WANNA GO BACK SO BAD. I MISS HADKOR SO BAD. I MISS MY FRIENDS SO BAD. I WANNA MEET MY BOY SO BAD. I WANNA BE WITH HIM SO BAD. I WANNA BREAK FASTING WITH HIM SO BAD. I WANNA CELEBRATE HIS BIRTHDAY SO BAD. I WANNA BE AT SHAH ALAM SO BAD. I MISS SHAH ALAM SO BAD. I WANNA BE AT HOME SO BAD. I WANNA RAYA AT KAMPUNG SO BAD. I WANNA PLAY FIRECRACKERS SO BAD. I WANNA EAT RENDANG, KETUPAT PALAS AND KUIH RAYA SO BAD. I WANNA WEAR MY NEW KURUNG SO BAD. I DUNWAN TO BE AT PILAH SO BAD. I WANNA I WANNA I WANNA, SO MANY THINGS. LALALALALALA~

Lepaskan aku;

2011-08-19T01:02:00.002+08:00

Macam mana kau nak aku lepaskan kau dulu, walaupun time tu aku cakap susah, tapi kau tetap berkeras. Mahukan aku untuk melepaskan kau. Lepas aku lepaskan kau, kenapa jadi macam ni pula? Drama apa yang cuba dirakamkan? Come on baby come on! Klik dekat video atas ni, tunggu video ni buff, dah siap, kau dengar lagu ni. Sebagai penyedap, untuk kefahaman kau, aku sertakan lirik;

Mulai saat ini...
Aku kan ubah pendirian,
Walau ramai akhir sendirian,

Jangan difikir pasal aku...
Teruskan saja dengan hidupmu,
Maki hamun deras sudah tentu,

Pasangan tak sentiasa indah...
Mesti ada perang yang kau redah,
Aku waki hati takkan rebah,

Ku tak mahu beterus terang...
Risaukan kemuncak amarah ku,
Maki hamun deras sudah tentu...

Lepaskan aku,
Lupakan aku,
Aku hanya ingin sendirian,
Tak pernah ku rasakan,
Atas nama tekanan,
Tak pernah ku rasakan,
Atas nama tekanan...

* This is just a random post. #siapamakancilidiaterasapedasnya

Drug Dealer's birthday!

2011-08-14T13:35:00.002+08:00

14th August; Happy birthday to my Drug Dealer.

Yeah, you’re getting old baby. Remember that. Ahaha btw thousand apologies I’m asking for you because I can’t celebrate your birthday with you. Your very first birthday ever with me. I’m so sorry. It’s quite hard sometimes when we’re being too far from each other. You’re stuck at Dungun, while me at Pilah. But don’t worry, I’ll always remember your birthday J Distance never pass to make us feel apart from each other. Right? Luckily we met already last Friday. Thanks for picking me up again at KL Sentral. I appreciate that, even though I was not okay that time yet you still make time for me.

Met him last Friday, stuck in jamm, had a small fight in the car haha. Then we’re okay, that really make me feel better. Hug him while he’s driving really make me feel better. I really miss him since we didn’t meet for a month. Fuhh, that’s the longest time we didn’t meet each other. Ahaha went to Seven, accompany him to buy a new headset for his new bike. Yayada he loves bike so much -_-“ More than me right boy? Tsk tsk, pity me. Haha.

Then went to track, had a great time with him. Even though just for a while. Then he sent me off to home and he stuck again in jamm, till he can’t break fasting with his family. I’m so sorry about that boy. Told ya already no need to pick me up, lolz even though I really want you to do so because I want to meet you so badly. Ahah pardon me for that, now you know what’s happening behind the scene :P

In the night, right after breaking fast with my family, I make him choc cupcakes as an advance birthday present. Put them in a box, and some note on it ahah. And yeah I make him egg sandwich too! Now your few wishes has come true sayang :P In the night, he came to meet me. I make it as a surprise, well even though it’s not a really surprise but I hope you appreciate it. Sorry if it’s not taste well. You know, I’m not really good in cooking. Ahah but I’m trying. In fact, Mama also don’t want to help me in making the cupcakes because she know that it was for you so she want me to put my own effort on it. Ahah I’m quite screw up while making it, and if you was there you’ll know how mess the kitchen I make. Haha but in the end, I done it nicely I guess? Ahaha.

Met him for just about 2 hours in the evening, and about 15 minutes in the night really don’t satisfied me. I need more times with you love L But whatever it’s, is better than nothing right? I’m looking at the bright side.

Once again, sorry for the not-well-prepared present. I’m looking for a better one for you. And sorry because didn’t sing you any happy birthday song, I really sucks with it. Ahah and yeah he ask me to play happy birthday song with drum since I don’t know how to play Guitar. Lol. Later I learn from your drummer kay? Ahaha don’t play around, I’ll ask E4D’s drummer to teach me later :P Don’t be surprised if I make it! HAHAHA.

Hope you enjoy every moments of your day sayang. Be good when we’re apart. Eh, I feel like it’s my birthday since I make so many wish on you. Ahaha sorry, it supposed to be your birthday haha not mine.

Hope you enjoy your 19^th years old birthday. My pray is always be with you.

Once again, happy birthday and me love you boy. So much.

A perfect one year,

2011-08-13T23:23:00.003+08:00

13th August 2010; still remember this date? When you fooled me away? I'm not hoping for you to remember it, just I should thank you for fooled me for the uncounted times. And for the last time. After all, do remember, "thank you for fooled me". I'm glad for that. At least I know where should I stand. And the place is, not to be next to you :)

#tomypast; Thanks for fooled me.

#tomypresent; I'm hoping on you. Don't fooled me like how my past(s) did.

Sembilan puluh dua!

2011-08-01T20:17:00.002+08:00

Okay done with ze buka puasa and now i'm fvcking bored. I strolling to Nabby's blog and I found this. A survey, I love survey fyi so lets do it!

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last Beverage

Mineral Water F&N

2. Last Phone Call
Mama

3. Last Text Message

Ami

4. Last Song you listened to

Miserable at best.

5. Last Time you cried

Last week.

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone Twice

Jangan cakap twice, thrice, fries, pun pernah -.-"

7. Been Cheated on

Yes, and thank you fckah :)

8. Kissed someone & regretted it

No.

9. Lost someone special

Yes.

10. Been Depressed

Yes I do.

11. Been Drunk and Threw up

I never drink.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Red

13. Black

14. Gold

HAVE YOU:

15. Made a New Friend

Yes, and alot !

16. Fallen out of love

I guess?

17. Laughed until you cried

Jyeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

18. Met Someone who Changed you

Yes :)

19. Found out who your true friends were

Yes, since I'm form 4.

20. Found out someone was talking about you

Yes, when I was form 2. I thought it just a rumors.

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list

Yes.

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life

80% and above. I dont approve random people.

24. Do you have any pets

Once, a bird :D

25. Do you want to change your name

No!

26. What did you do for your last birthday

Had a blast advance celebration with my sibs, cousin and some friends. And celeb it with DD.

27. What time did you wake up today?

4.20 am and 8.30 am.

28. What were you doing at midnight last night

Doing my bio's assignment and otp with love.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for
RAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

30. Last time you saw your Mother

Last two weeks.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life

This heart of mine.

32. What are you listening to right now

I want to hold your hand.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?
Yes, kucing Nana.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now

ASSIGNMENTS!

37. Nickname

Mira. Migha. Kecik.

38. Relationship Status

Single but complicated. HAHAHAHA

39. Zodiac sign
Taurus

40. He or She

A female.

41. Elementary School

SRAI 19, Shah Alam.

42. High School

SMK Sulaiman, Bentong. SMKS19, Shah Alam.

43. College

Currently, UiTM Kuala Pilah, Negeri Sembilan.

44. Hair colour

Black, and me love it so much.

45. Long or short hair

Shoulder length. Miss ma old hair.

46. Height

152cm.

47. Do you have a crush on someone?

Yes, one and only at the time.

48. What do you like about yourself?

Everything. Because I'm awesome like that.

49. Piercings
A pair.

50. Tattoo
Haram

51. Right or lefty

Right.

FIRSTS:

52. First surgery

Nope

53. First piercing

Form 3 ke form 2 entah.

54. First best friend

Tadika dulu, Hawa.

55. First sport you joined

Netball.

56. First vacation

Manaaku ingat.

58. First pair of sneakers

Tak ingat la aku.

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating
Makan hati, it's counted?

60. Drinking

Air liur.

61. I'm about to

Setting my body, my mood back.

62. Listening to

Jar of heart.

63. Waiting for

Ada mood.

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids?

Belum, sabar.

65. Get Married?

Yess, one day InsyaAllah.

66. career ?

Engineering sector.

WHICH IS BETTER IN A GUY/GIRL:

67. Lips or eyes

Eyes.

68. Hugs or kisses

Both, but hugs the most.

69. Shorter or taller

Taller!

70. Older or Younger

Older, never say never to younger.

71. Romantic or spontaneous

Spontaneous. Romantic kadang kadang.

72. Nice stomach or nice arms

STOMACH! Perut boroi please? :(

73. Sensitive or loud

Both.

74. Hook-up or relationship

Relationship. Jangan mainkan perasaan la nak hook up je.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant
Errrrr

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger
No -_____-

77. Drank hard liquor

Nope

78. Lost glasses/contacts

Lost it once, misplaced everyday

79. Sex on first date

Bongok

80. Broke someone's heart

Sorry

82. Been arrested
Cikgu sekolah, yes

83. Turned someone down

I guess.

85. Fallen for a friend

No, for me friends remains friends.

86. Found yourself talking in your sleep
Idk

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

87. Miracles

Yes

88. Love at first sight

Yes, but it just a crush. Never last.

89. Heaven

Yes, balasan untuk orang baik.

90. Santa Claus

91. Kiss on the first date

Ahaha no!

92. Angels

Yes

Makin lama, makin lama.

2011-08-01T16:34:00.004+08:00

2 days --> 2 weeks--> 2 months --> 2 years

Two days.

Ni time awal awal kenal. Kalau boleh hari hari la jumpa. Nampak tak mamat ni addict dekat aku? Hahh macam mana ni? Siapa Drug Dealer ni cerita dia? Ahaha. Paling tidak, paling lama la; dua hari la kitorang tak jumpa. Kalau jumpa ada je la tempat di tuju, ada la benda nak dibuat nya. Mengarut ngarut berdua. Balik balik keluar berdua, naik bosan aku tengok muka you Mok. *tipu je tipu je*

Two weeks.

Dua minggu sekali jumpa sejak aku masuk UiTM ni. Eventho lepas dia dah start masuk balik Poli pun kitorang still jumpa dua minggu sekali. Nak buat macam mana, susah susah pun jumpa juga. Till he came to Pilah, till I went to Kuantan. Distance doesn't make a border for us. Sweet kan? I knowwwwww~

Two months.

Bulan puasa ni memang tak dapat la aku nak balik. Eh maybe boleh balik but I don't think I will. Busy kotttttt. Plus he wont come home too. Balik time raya terus. Too bad, raya maybe aku balik kampung terus. Right from kampung, aku terus balik Pilah. Sedih tak? Sedih kan? I know. Naik raya aku busy, nak final la bagai. Memang tak la weh nak jumpa kan. Ahaha pejam celik pejam celik, dua bulan tak jumpa. Jumpa time aku cuti sem, KALAU dia balik. Kannn?

Two years.

Ni berangan nak fly oversea. Ahaha nampak tak aku kuat berangan? Aku teringat Kak Daia and Abang Mizi. Kak Daia dekat Adelaide, while Abang Mizi dekat Malaysia. Hahh ambil kau, kaw kaw punya long-distance-relationship. Apa ada hal kan? Dah la Kak Daia baru je fly, kesian Abang Mizi. I know how he feels. Nampak je lelaki, but I know you hurt inside. Aicehhhh!

#Why Dungun jauh nak mampos dengan Pilah? Tell me why? Rasa nak koyak je peta *emosi*. Ahah poyo je. But sometimes its hurts kot. I miss him. Tetttttttttttttt~ I'm wishing to the stars, you gonna miss me too. Tapi, kalau di beri peluang college kitorang dekat dekat, boleh jumpa hari hari pun aku tak nak. Bosan la jumpa hari hari. Tak thrill. Nanti kalau rindu, rindu fake. Sebab nak sedapkan hati, buat apa? Baik tak payah, biar jauh jauh. Biar rindu kaw kaw! Hahhhh haha. Best tak? Best kan? I knowwww bby~

#nowplaying Next to you by Justin Bieber ♥

Ramadhan 1432 Hijrah

2011-08-01T16:24:00.003+08:00

Happy fasting everyone! Selamat berpuasa!

My first day of puasa is so sad. Used to be at home, but not anymore. Me now in college and apart from my family. Pagi tadi bangun sahur pun Syewa kejut. Used to be Mama, then Babah will wake me up. Biasa la, anak derang ni memang liat nak mampos bangun pagi. Ahaha. Selalu mesti Mama will wake me up around half an hour lagi nak habis waktu sahur. Because Mama tahu aku tak makan banyak, haha and I love my waktu tidur. Lol. Pagi tadi pun bangun makan nasi, ayam masak merah yang pedas gila, telur goreng and kicap. No hot drinks early in the morning T.T Minum air mineral kotak aku je ahah. I wanna go home, please...

"No" remains "No"

2011-07-20T23:11:00.005+08:00

It's not easy for me to give out my numb. Especially now. I'm not gonna give out my numb for nothing, unless I know you, or we got important things to settle down.

If I say "no", deal with it. My answer will remains "no", won't change. Make me change my mind, make me go. Ha-ha.

Didn't reply you, I bet you should know where to stand.

Again? 1st June to 21st July. Ahaha I bet you're really determined to have it yo. What for btw? I'm not gonna give it :) Deal with it. Sorry bro ! Gua tak menyesal langsung sebab tak approve lu dalam friendlist gua. HAHAHAHAHA.

Temporary-feelings

2011-07-14T16:29:00.002+08:00

Esah did wrote about "temporary-feelings" on her blog. What a cool statement she wrote, and no doubt what she wrote is true. Roughly, "temporary-feelings" is suka. In my point of view, pardon me if we're in a different shoes. For me, it's not what we called love. Love and like is obviously a two different things. You should think back, which path you're in. It's not cool at all if you're just in a "temporary-feelings" situation and you treat guy/girl you suka tu macam gila gila. I mean, okay tak reti nak explain. Faham faham la sendiri. Selalu buat kan? Tak kan tak faham lagi? Ahaha. #terasake?

This is not cool.

"temporary-fgseelin" is like suka, and not more than that. Usually this feeling appear when you're lonely. Most of the time, do trust me. Especially, kalau baru lepas break up. Perghhh macam macam orang kau akan suka. Ahaha pantang yang ada eye-catching sikit :P Dulu zaman zaman sekolah selalu la aku macam ni. Pantang tak berkenan habis break terus, tak ada fikir apa. And I'm the one who called the relationship off. Pardon me boy. But, I guess I'm growing up. I guess? Yeahh, I don't do that anymore, ahaha sound funny right? But yeah its true. Jangan la wisauuuuuu okay? Ahaha. Only my true friends know how I am now. Kan ForeverLove? Ahaha.

Biasa la. FL used to be my rakan seangkatan. Tapi sekarang dah cuci tangan, kan FL? Aicehh haha.

Trust me, if you're having "temporary-feelings", it will fade in times. Get what I mean? It will never last. Eventhough to get rid of that feeling will take times. But sooner or later, you will. Like what I said just now, dont ever let anyone down by your "temporary-feelings". It's hurt maynnnnn, once you feel it then you'll know what I'm saying. Dont express your "temporary-feelings" to her/him. Please don't. I might afraid once you left him/her, ouchh I know how it feels. Express your feeling once you're sure about your feeling and when you're ready. Never make a permanent decision based on temporary feelings.

P/s: How long have we get to know each other? Are you having a "temporary-feelings"? I hope you're not.

Another great weekend,

2011-07-12T09:03:00.007+08:00

*Peneman me all the way from Kuala Pilah to Kuantan :)

* Pasangan malu-malu anjing; Kak Ida and Gaga :P

Ahah I made a surprise for DD last Sat, and guess what I've done? Ahaha yeah I went to Kuantan. He's there with his bandmates. Eroc for Dynamic did perform for for a gig so-called Monster Screams. And yeah I went there, I told him I'm not going but right before E4D perform, I reached there. Ahaha he don't even know about my coming till I enter the studio, and Gaga show me where is he. Right then, terus serang dia. Ahaha I can see muka terperanjat you DD. Ahah sorry, but I just wanna make you smile on that day :) Tak berniat untuk menipu, meski pun dah menipu kaw kaw masa i otw. Ahaha. I went there with Kak Ida, since Kak Ida nak jumpa Gaga. Eh silap, she wanna catch E4D live again :P Pffft alasan semata mata haha.

Mula mula masuk, Gaga cakap macam ni "Iqbal sedih doh kau tak datang!"

Ahaha sorry DD, part tu I dah gelak macam nak mampos kat luar. Ahaha. Masuk masuk je first band dah start perform. I dont really catch the show. I preferred to sit in the crew rooms. Ahaha sorry, I'm not so into gig. Lolzzzzzzz. So wait and wait till baby perform, bla bla bla managed to perform 3 songs if I'm not mistaken and for the last song ahah something happened. Jyeahh Gaga dengan DD punya tali gitar putus (Y) Muahaha pity them, especially Gaga. Muka kesian kau sangat terserlah Ga. Ahaha.

* While DD performing, sorry tangan penuh pegang bb merah untuk record so gmb me snap mcm -_-

Bla bla bla right after they performed, we split. DD chow dengan kawan dia, bla bla and me and Kak Ida stay there sampai gig habis. Okay sorry DD, i tak bermaksud nak curang tapi last band punya 2nd vox sangat auwmmmmmmmm! He perform right in front of me, ask Kak Ida. Dia pun cair hahaha. Then in the night, catch back with DD. Lepak lepak while waiting for our bus. Mine is at 0030 while his is at 1am. I had a great time eventho for just for few hours. I miss Kuantan, I miss Papa's house. Ahaha.

* The boy I love the most :)

-Current wallpaper

GREAT JOB E4D !

Long Distance Relationship

2011-07-05T20:13:00.005+08:00

Okay, I'm having a long distance relationship now. I had before, tapi apa la sangat kalau setakat Shah Alam-KL kan. This time, Kuala Pilah-Dungun. Can you imagine? Yes, aku rasa tak aman. Sangat. It's not easy man. Seriously I admit it. I can feel something diff. Shitzzzzz.

Just like what Durra wrote on her blog. Haha ya la, she's having the same thing. She's in Banting while Harith in Perak. Jauh la tu kan? But it's nothing to compare between me and DD. Cehhhh~ Hahaha.

Aku rasa in my LDR, paling bermasalah aku. Yes, at least aku admit. Masalah aku, aku sangat sangat sangat kuat cemburu. Satu kelemahan. Take note there bro. Even over a small thing boleh buat aku tarik muka gila babi. Tak percaya sudah. Tahap cemburu aku memang melampau ahha. Siapa bertahan, tahniah la kan.

Rindu. Rindu rindu ni biasa la kan. Tapi paling terasa bila dah LDR. Sumpah tak tipu. All we can do is just text, call, mms, fb, twitter, skype. Tu je la termampu. Kat tempat gua tak ada line 3g, tak dapat video call. #untungla rumah sewa ada line 3g. #terasake? Kbai. Nak jumpa jumpa ni memang tak la kan. Celah mana pula nak berjumpa nya. But but but, DD, you nak balik kan 16th? Ehem ehem. Hehehehe.

Another thing, miss-understanding. Hah aku rasa aku lettu. Akibat dari cemburu, habis semua benda pun boleh buat aku mengamuk. Serious tak tipu. Kau tanya DD, macam mana dia kena dengan aku. #thanks sayang bertahan, atotototo. Biasa la, lambat reply text ke apa ke, keluar dengan girls ke gua mula la dah fikir bukan bukan. #sorry DD. You know how I am. At least, I gave out what I feel, I bukan jenis simpan simpan. Tetttt~

Risau. Hah risau ni laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Haihh. Disebabkan sifat cemburu yang menebal ada dekat aku, habis kalau kau keluar dengan perempuan pun aku dah panas bontot. Hahaha looks funny right? Aku rasa kadang kadang aku ni over-protective. Its not that I dont trust him, seriously its not liddat. But even kalau bukan dia yang pergi menggatal, tapi perempuan yang menggatal kat dia pun boleh jadi juga. Betul tak? Fikir balik. Gua kat Pilah, tak heran. Semua dah tak berani kacau, wallpaper gua gambar lu. Tak faham lagi tak tahu nak cakap apa la nyah.

*Abang senior, lu jaga mata jaga hati dekat sana tahu? Kalau ada junior menggeletik dengan lu, lu beringat sikit. Gua dapat tahu lu curang, gua shoot Dungun hentak lu. Kchow.

# Comolot hug comolot hug Muhammad Iqbal Mohd Rosli.

By definition - Mimi Morticia

2011-07-05T19:48:00.002+08:00

Aku rasa,

I love you bermaksud;

Jangan pergi.

Jangan tinggalkan aku di sini.

Minta apa saja. Lakukan apa saja.

Aku memilih untuk bersama kamu saat ini.

Aku benar benar tidak memikirkan diri sendiri.

Tolong terima aku seadanya. Tolong ubah aku

dan lenturkan aku agar boleh cocok dengan

lekuk tubuhmu. Tolong balas pesanan ringkas

ku yang tak putus putus. Tolong jangan suka

orang lain. Tolong jangan jatuh cinta pada orang

lain. Tolong jangan bernafsu dengan orang

lain. Aku obses dengan mu. Aku diam diam

memujamu, Kamu pegangan hidupku. Kamu

aturan ku. Kamu paksi hari hari ku.

Kamu sembilan puluh persen dari alam sedarku.

Hari aku sebagai cagaran. Badan ku rela kau

apakan. Padanglah aku. Senyumlah padaku.

Ciumlah aku. Peluklah aku. Cintailah aku

kerana aku mencintaimu. Tetaplah di sini.

Tetaplah di sini.

Xoxo,

Tangerin & Nikotin.

Mimi Morticia.

*Especially for DD.

Should and shouldn't do

2011-07-02T10:27:00.006+08:00

Its worth to stop everything that I had before, something that I proud of before. Because now, I got someone that I can really be proud of. Instead of you. You should see how I am, now and before. Now and how when I'm with you. You should see it. I should listen to my friends before, they told me something RIGHT but I ignore it. I was so stupid that time, but now I can see vividly what I should do, and what I shouldn't. Do you wanna know? What I should do is proceed with my life without you! And I shouldn't do is to be with you :) Haha why you do what I ask you to do? It's my fault? Nahh, I don't think so. You should think first, I thought you're a smart person? Don't tell me I'm wrong! Pleaseeee~ Because all this while, you always act that you're right all the times. Ha-ha.

Enjoy your life while you still can boy.

Haha you're always right kan? Good then, you should be proud of it. Ha-ha.

Middle finger on the go.

“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option” - I know how shit it is when I'm with you.

A very last meeting,

2011-06-28T01:04:00.003+08:00

Sebagai mukadimah, pilih antara pic peserta perseorangan di bawah, yang mana comel? #matakeatastangankedada

Peserta pertama;

* Muka lu macam nak kena sepak je. *rata rata memberi komen sebegini.

Peserta kedua;

Auwwww why she's co tiuttttt? *rata rata memberi komen sedemikian.

Agak agak siapa menang? Secara kasarnya dapat disaksikan bahawa peserta kedua memenangi kedudukan Johan. Maaflah peserta pertama, cuba lagi nasib di entri akan datang. Kbai.

Okay enough. Sokmo mengarut. Entri kali ini, cerita pasal my last meeting with DD. Yeah, last meeting. We're apart now. He's now packing his things and he's moving to Dungun. Back to Dungun. Sedih tak? Kau tak sedih, aku sedih. Tu dah cukup.

Last sat, aku gerak Seremban. Sorang sorang woi. Tak pernah aku, naik bas lagi from Kuala Pilah. Bangga aku kerana berjaya jejak Seremban. Naik bas. Sorry, gua anti bas sebenarnya. Public transport lain gua steady. So dah sampai Seremban, I took cab to JJ S2 then pusing pusing jap tunggu DD sampai. Tak lebih 15mins DD sampai. He was from KJ. Cool tak? 15mins shoot terus sampai S2. Haha siapa percaya dia bodoh. Muahaha.

Then we went for lunch, pai tee dia sedap. Serious wa tak tipu. Lu pergi Chicken Rice Shop, lu minta pai tee. Rasa tembak. Gua suka. Dua untuk DD, dua untuk gua. Nasib tak terbalik meja gara-gara berebut benda tu. Okay settle makan, terus shoot movie. Haram movie Rasuk. Bodoh punya cerita. Dah habis, pergi beli Starbucks then gerak balik Pilah. Otw back, sempat singgah Belia Kuala Pilah, lepak dekat skatepark dia. Cehh skatepark la sangat. Tetttt~

Dah tu lepak lepak lepak lepak lepak lepak lepak lepak, end up back to Seremban then we went to PD. Overnight sana, jangan risau. Lampu spotlight putih suluh kitorang dikala lepak di tepi pantai. Ahaha sumpah best, counting stars with DD. Wee! Me love stars :) Spent the night for just both of us, tepi pantai. Kau rasa cemburu tak? You should ! Muahaha.

Then early in the morning, I was planned to watch sunrise with him at the beach but too bad hujan pula. Kat situ gua dah sedih sikit, sikit la. Nasib malam tu sempat jalan tepi pantai. Ada orang siap online tepi pantai, cool kan? Aku tolak kau, jatuh kau masuk pantai sekali laptop putih kau. Nak? Eleleleh cari idea konon, budget jewwwwww... Khabis.

So, we had our breakfast at Seremban then he drove me back to Pilah. Part tu sedih. Tapi macam biasa, buat je muka steady depan DD. Kang dia kembang, gua kesian pula nanti dia nak balik seluar koyak. The night before, dah air tumpah HAHAHA. Okay habis.

Makhluk asing with me, plus minus 20hours together.

That's how we spent our last meeting together. Whatever it's, I appreciate it DD. Thanks for the exciting weekend and meaningful weekend together. Love ya !

After one month,

2011-06-20T19:15:00.004+08:00

Setelah sebulan tak balik, yeahhhh akhirnya balik Shah Alam. Weee~ So excited you knowwww haha. Habis class terus shoot balik, beriya konon kata balik after class, at 5pm ahaha. Then went to Seremban by bus then I took KTM to Kl Sentral. Jeng jeng jeng~ Once I reached Kl Sentral, terus cari McD oh myyyy rindu McD ahah i miss the porridge the most hehe. Too bad Mcd Kl Sentral tak ada. Bayang tak betapa sedihnya aku? T.T Then i just bought mc shaker fries, then DD come and pick me up. Weee he drive me to PJ, yayada pusing pusing then pergi makan cendol. Eee you feed me with cendol yang sakit perut laaaa haha. Then terus shoot pergi Sunway Pyramid, pusing pusing lastly he sent me home. Weee mama and babah dont mind he drive me anywhere hehe. Mama and babah bg green light ke DD? Ahahahaha.

DD in Kuala Pilah

2011-06-13T19:38:00.003+08:00

What a suprising tittle aite? Ahaha yeah, DD was hereeeeeeeee :D He came yesterday. It was last mins plan. He told me he wanted to come down. I didnt let him to drive alone at the first place but he was too eager, I know you're missing me. Ahahahaha.

By 7pm, he reach here. He wanted to cry when he see my place. What a mean confession. I hate you DD for that -_-" Boleh dia kata "I nak nangis tengok tempat you". Ish I hate you! Then he took me out, we go to KFC. Had our dine, ahah he really being out of control. We talk, we laugh so hard. We humiliate ourself. Ahaha come on, after three weeks we didnt meet each other, at last he come to meet me. Auww I'm so touched sayang, thank you. *big hugs*

Then we had a ride around Pilah and thought of going to Bahau but we cancel it. Back to college at 9++ and by 10pm I let him home. So sad aite? We just meet for 3 hours but that's much better compare to didnt meet at all. Thank God he reach here safely and reach safely. Alhamdulillah.

I miss DD, still. Kbai. Wait for me. I'm coming home this Friday wee~ You said you want to pick me up aite? Yeayyyyyyyy!

Segmen Mengarut

2011-06-07T23:10:00.004+08:00

Hai. Sebenarnya aku tak tahu nak cakap apa pun. Nampak tak kebosanan aku terserlah? To start doing revision, i'm not in the mood. Bla bla bla~ DD is out, main skate. With who, idk -_-" Aku rasa sangat tidak pro-aktif hari ini. Tak pasti apa yang mengganggu. (amboi! Ayat dramatis nya) Okay abaikan apa aku mengarut.

Paling pelik tadi habis class, aku baring dalam bilik and out of blue aku menangis. Pelik tak? Pelik kan? Hahhhhh secara tidak semena-mena aku terfikirkan benda tu. So aku ter-nangis, ter ya. Saya tak sengaja. Aku teringat apa aku lihat, aku teringat our late so-called-heart-to-heart-conversation few days ago. Idk what's up with me. I confess everything, everything that i shouldn't! I guess. Mungkin sebab aku ini terlalu berterus-terang. Tak pandai la aku nak sorok-sorok. Macam apa je sorok-sorok, kau ingat kau budak kecil nak main polis-pencuri agaknya.

Okay dah la. Aku nak makan ubat yang doktor bagi tadi dan membuat cubaan untuk tidur. Tengahari tadi dapat tidur sekejap saja, lepas tu menggelupur pergi kelas haha. Nasib baik Atikah text aku, dan aku sedar. Kalau tak? Mampos. Nasib tutorial je, sejam. Fuhhh~ Okay, terima kasih meluangkan masa anda yang terhad untuk membaca segmen mengarut aku untuk hari ini.

Drug Dealer

2011-06-07T18:47:00.004+08:00

Okay, know this guy? I bet you don't. Haha i never exposed him in my blog. And yeah, this is DD or known as Drug Dealer. Kitorang dah tak jumpa almost three weeks. Lama kan? Before this at least, AT LEAST dua hari sekali mesti jumpa. Hah tu la gatal nya selalu jumpa. I miss you DD.

All this while we only contact thru phone. We text, call and mms each other. Haha i'm having a long distance relationship now. Sho sad you know T.T Since i bring my laptop, so yesterday, we webcam-ing. But the saddest thing is fb being so bitchy. In fact skype and ym too :'( So sad you know. But at least, at least I'm glad that we meet each other on the line. Ahaha.

*Look at DD, he's being so annoying by taking off his shirt in front of me. Lols.

I miss you DD ♥

For the first three weeks.

2011-06-06T08:55:00.002+08:00

Hai. Ya saya sudah mula menempuhi alam universiti. Tak sangka i'm a big girl now. Big girl la sangat kan. Kfain.

First week macam haram. Aku tak suka. It's not that i'm homesick. Nope! A big no! Tapi segalanya disebabkan oleh sekeliling aku. Rakan rakan.Yeah! I cant make friends here. Minded derang totally berbeza with me. Tapi nak buat macam mana kan? Aku redha je la.

The second week, i'm starting to doing fine here. I make tons of friends. And i like them. Aku tak banyak kawan negeri lain selain Selangor dan Wilayah Persekutuan. Tapi aku suka my-old-housemate! She's from Johor, sangat kelakar. My housemate pun semua budak KL and Selangor, except for Kak Mira. She's from Negeri Sembilan'. Cool aite? And Kak Ida, i like her. She's totally crazy. She brought guitar and last night she play "Ilove you more than you will ever know-NSN" and me sing it. Omggggggggg i miss DD so much this time because he's the onewho give me this song. Hmm.

I think i'm gonna stuck herefor a month. Shaitzzzzzz lama kan? I knowww~DD cant wait to see me. Hahaha. Oh yeah i gained 1.6kg in two weeks time and i achieved a normal BMI for the first time in my life. All this while mesti underweight. Pity me :'(

*Aku ter-eksaited bila DD text pagi pagi buta menyatakan he's here. Dusta la you, tak nak kawan kbai.

I'm not ready, at all.

2011-05-20T09:59:00.002+08:00

Wanna know something? I'm leaving tomorrow. And yeah i'm not ready at all. At all. Means from physically or mentally. Till at this moment, every document is ready. Except for my things. I haven't packing anything.

Ahaha starting from last week, till today. Drug Dealer helps me a lot. Since my parents are busy, so accompany me to here and there. Bring me to shopping, bring me to school, PPD to verified all my certificate and bla bla. Bring me to clinic for medical check up, bring me to take pictures. Take me out to eat when i'm so so so hungry. Ahaha he always there when i need him. Thanks DD.

Last week, we met everyday. Ahaha i was so touched cause he's willing to come down from KJ to SA everyday. Eventho KJ to SA only takes 20 mins but still, tak penat pula kan jumpa aku hari hari? Ahaha. Oh yeah i managed to watch FAST5 with him. Okay that story was superb. I really wanna watch FAST5 and THOR again. PLEASE!

I really love my new red snekers from Nike. DD bought it for me, aiceh bought for me. Ahaha i've been looking for that sneakers everywhere but didn't find it. At last i found it with him so yeah we bought it. Weeee~ Bought 2 shoes when i go out with him. Seriously can't go out with you la DD. You seduced me to shopping! Hate you -_-" Hahaha.

Okay, do pray for me in the environment. I'm glad i have Mai with me. Same place, same course. Auwww me like. At least at the first moment, i have friend there. In fact, i have Kak Tatie there so i guess im gonna be fine. DD got tons of friends there and he said he will ask them to take care of me, auwww. He's gonna be on leave till July, then on July he's going to Dungun to continue his studies. Dont you feel sad? :( Someone in KP while someone in Dungun. Shitzzzzzzzz.

Friends, do well in your new life. Lets make our parents proud of us. That's the best thing to do now. Right? Good luck in everything. Do pray for me as well. For certain friends that i didnt meet for the last time, i'm sorry. Didnt meet doesn't mean we cant meet at all after this :) Oh sorry to my friends which do keep messaging me on my maxis numb, sorry i haven't top up it for a while. I'm celcom user nowadays. Do text me for my celcom number okay? :)

Xoxo.

My very 6th May,

2011-05-08T11:46:00.003+08:00

Malam sebelum 6th May, saja lepak lepak ride. Okay bila balik rumah tengok adik aku, Fyka and kawan kawan adik aku dah tersadai depan rumah. Tu diaaaaaaaa tepung campur beras menghujani aku. Tak cukup dengan tu, telur pun ditepek. Umph umph tabur gula, bakar confirm sedap. Sumpah macam haram dah rupa aku. Lama tak main tepung. Muahaha. Okay terima kasih banyak banyak. Hargai tu. Auwww.

Okay sebenarnya ada benda sedih jadi beberapa hari sebelum my birthday. Hah Drug Dealer kena balik Dungun on 4th May. Nak daftar, buat short sem. Sedih tak? Padahal dah plan ni nak celebrate my birthday bla bla. Okay tiba tiba on 5th May, petang tu petang. He said he's coming home malam tu juga. Boleh rasa tak aku lompat tinggi mana time tu? Hahaha. So dia balik juga malam tu. Then on 6th May, tengah seronok tengok tv, ada orang ketuk pintu rumah. Aku tanya siapa, dia tak nak menyahut. Dia ketuk lagi. Aku dah seram dah, aku sorang dekat rumah time tu. Last last aku buka pintu, tengok tengok ada orang hulur kek, ada lilin siap nyanyi. Haahhhhhhh cuba teka siapa? Ahaha obviously my Drug Dealer. Lol. Padahal time tu tengah texting, amboi pandai pancing. Ahah then we went to Mcd, makan lagi padahal i just had my lunch ahha then makan cake sampai muak. Lepas tu pergi Subang Parade and Empire, teman dia berjalan. I swear to God I tak nak ikut you pergi mall, penat. Asyik asyik masuk kedai suka zZzzz. Muak aku. Lepas tu bebel mulut tu tak reti nak stop -_-" Lepas tu lepak, snap pics mengarut entah apa apa. Till I found something in his phone. Jyeah! Something. Apa dia tu rahsia.

Then in the night, Bedey, Epi, Omar and Helmi datang rumah. Sebab Bedey nak bagi hadiah. Yeayyy Bedey bagi hadiah and Epi too actually. Tehee :D Thanks a lot for the day. Me appreciate it much <3

Mama, Razana :)

2011-05-08T11:39:00.001+08:00

Happy Mother's Day Ma, me love you. Dont you ever think that I dont love you <3

Am I one of them? :O

2011-05-02T12:47:00.001+08:00

Percaya atau x, kita boleh ber”tunang” tanpa sedar?? Yup, kita boleh bertunang tanpa kita sedar, bila seorang lelaki, berhasrat untuk mengambil seorang perempuan untuk dijadikan isteri. Eh, itu memang normal bukan? Tapi, yang anda mungkin x tahu, anda sebenarnya sudah bertunang bila situasi seperti berikut berlaku:

Lelaki menyatakan hasrat ingin menjadikan perempuan itu isterinya, dan perempuan itu bersetuju. Adakah dikira telah bertunang? Padahal tidak ada ibu bapa perempuan tersebut.

Pinang dari segi hukum fiqah, bererti pihak lelaki menyatakan hasrat berkahwin pada pihak perempuan. Itu dipanggil pinang. Bila perempuan menjawab setuju, maka jadilah perempuan itu tunang laki tersebut.

Situasi yang dianggap pinangan:

"Aku nak jadikan kamu sebagai isteriku"

"Kahwinlah dengan kita bila2"

Bila si perempuan bersetuju, dia akan jadi tunang. Sama ada bercakap dalam telefon, tetap dah jadi tunang.

Contoh:

"lelaki sebut dalam telefon, "I nak jadikan u isteri I lah"

Perempuan tersebut jawab, I sukalah, I setujulah, oraitt I’m fine, oklah, I redha atau apa2 yang menunjukkan dia suka dengan “pinangan” lelaki tersebut, maka ia sudah dianggap bertunang.

Jadi, bila dia dah jadi tunang orang tanpa sedar, bila ada lelaki yang meminang, hukumnya haram.

Kita orang melayu time nak tunang duk bawang rombongan 1 bas, bawak barang2 pinangan, itu sebenarnya adalah ADAT bukan dari segi hukum Islam. Dari segi hukum Islam, dah jatuh hukum tunang.

Persoalan ialah bila Ibu bapa xde. Mengikut hukum syarak, kalau perempuan itu sudah diizin pada syarak. Sebagai contoh, perempuan yang cerdik, yang baligh, yang blh berfikir, etc dia sudah dianggap bertunang.

Bila perempuan tu x menepati hukum syarak tersebut, contoh seperti x baligh lagi(baru darjah 3 mungkin), perempuan tu bodoh(x boleh berfikir), gila, dan sebagainya, makanya wali diperlukan untuk jawab “pinangan” tersebut.

Haaa, adakah anda ternganga bila tiba2 tau anda sudah menjadi tunangan orang tanpa sedar?? Haaa, ayokkk, x tau. Hehehe.

http://faina989.blogspot.com/2010/08/kita-mungkin-telah-bertunang-tanpa.html

Backstabber,

2011-04-27T15:52:00.001+08:00

Ouch F you backstabber. Muka punya la manis depan aku. Belakang aku macam sial. Fikir fikir la balik apa kau buat. Oh apa apa pun, terima kasih atas segala nasihat yang telah kau curahkan.

Dang dang dang~

2011-04-18T00:33:00.005+08:00

Hey, hello, hi. I'm come back. Miss me huh? I know you dont. Okay aku rindu nak menaip dalam bahasa melayu but oh tidakkkk~ Macam malas. Okay caca marba boleh kan? Ahah.

# Aku dah dapat L. Okay batak. sekali lulus je computer test aku tu. Bukan nak batak, riak kejap. Sebab masa aku pergi tu, aku pergi with two boys. Both of them failed kikiki :D So macam uhhhh~ bangga kot. Ahaha. Drive pun boleh, mana pergi jom apa ada hal haha. But since i got driver now, so tak payah la drive :P

# Qupah sumpah mcm tak faham bahasa. Sampai top up kan aku bagai. Zomg :O Oh boy that looks like F, i cant be with you. Till whenever. Stop text me, call me, bugging me or wtv that can make me piss off. Please.

# Sumpah bosan duduk rumah hari hari. Kalau tak keluar dengan Jose. But not anymore. Jose is now at Dungun. Final exam yo -_-" Goodluck ! Itu je la i boleh bagi ahha. Remember, if you can maintain your pointer, you can get whatever you want :D I miss to go out with you. I miss your Myvi. Ahahahahaha ehem ehem :P

# Aku rindu zaman sekolah. Serious tak tipu. Aku rindu environment sekolah. Hari tu aku study buku license, rasa macam baca buku Biology balik oh. Rinduuuuuuuuuuuu !

# Oh this sat ada Hari Kecemerlangan Pelajar. Mum and dad are so eager to go. So weird man. Dulu kalau aku dapat hadiah kat sekolah, no one comes. This time semua nak datang -_-" Eventho my SPM's result is not so good but Alhamdulillah cause mum and dad still love me. Ahaha.

# Ouch, i've delete all your pics. ALL. None left in my phone anymore. Your numb too even Alya said im stupid cause i still can remember yours but nevermind. Seems like you're damn okay now with your life so why should i be sad? I should have a great times in my life too. I should not waste my time. That's the most important.

# Last but not least, i miss the moment i spent with Ariff, Fiqa and Alia at Pavi. I miss Alia already. Hmm :'(

This is the time and place,

2011-03-24T10:15:00.003+08:00

Okay. Semalam apa yang ditunggu tunggu oleh budak SPM batch 2010 telah tiba. For certain students only kay. Not me. Ahaha. The day before, i've been thinking not to come to school to take my result. Everyone is mad at me. Ahah thanks to ehem ehem for not mad at me. But he's so eager to accompany me to school. You don't have to okay! Ahaha.

Okay masa pengumuman tu memang dah gelabah la. Tapi aku tahu aku tak dapat straight A's. Congrats to Nik and Siva. My classmate okay (Y) Hehe suka i. Then i cried along the announcement ahah part tu kau nak gelak, gelak la. If you're in my shoes, you'll do the same thing. First reason for my to cry because i'm happy for my friends and second reason in i'm afraid if i'm not one of the top students that they gonna announce.

At last, my name was announced. Before that i cried so hard because i thought i'm not one of them. Ahaha. Thanks to Zaa for cheer me up. Lots of love. I walked to the stage with tears running thru my cheek haha Datin hug me so long at the stage and once i get down i ran to Mama and hug her. Auwmm sorry Mama because i dont get straight A's but i've done my best.

After that we have photo session with all the 20 top students. I still can't stop crying haha that's the funniest thing. Went to dewan after that to take my sijil berhenti and everything. Once i finished there, Ehem ehem wait for me outside the school and treat me lunch. Auww thank you :') Then went to DE having some good times with Farah Syima and Esther haha. Few mins later, Mizi came and kidnap me to Gallery Shah Alam. Since his friend got Degree Show there so we went there and support him. Went to Seven after that, to get some drinks and we decided to go back.

After that, i went out again and i met him. Someone that i didn't meet for 3 months. That's a long period. Wow. That's the longest period. Like seriously. Nevermind. You have life, so do mine. You're the one who wants to take off everything, so okay. Eh cuba dengar lagu Aku, Dia dan Kamu by D-va. Lagu lama, baru aku tahu lirik dia mendalam.

Lastly, thanks to all. Teachers, friends, and obviously my parents for sacrificed so many things for me all this while. Love you guys so much. Be reminds about it! If i ever let you down with my result, i'm sorry. I know it's my fault. I was so emotional back in 2010 till i dont want to study and everything. Hmm i'm sorry. I know i can do better :'(

*The sweetest thing i received yesterday was a special thanks from Haziq to me.

H: Migha thanks tau!

M: Kau kenapa? Apa aku buat?

H: Thanks la sebab tunjuk jalan kat aku, kalau tak mesti result aku lagi teruk.

M: Ya Allah Haziq, tak ada hal la! Ish kau niii.

Congrats to all my friends, and to Farah. My cousin sebab dapat 18A's. I'm so proud of you! And to Syahmi, my cousin congrats for getting 9A's. Ouch you beat me :'( Hmm and to Fyka Huda and Faiz, congrats too! We've done our best (Y)

Ouchh :')

2011-03-18T17:37:00.004+08:00

Okay dah berhenti kerja. Puas rasanya. Tapi bosan duduk rumah. Wanna work under Pakya, my friend but grrh due to some probs so just forget it. Nevermind, next plan i'm gonna join you! Me you Nana and Alif! Yeayyy nanti ada "Hafiz AF" kikiki.

Oh pasal budak yang muka macam F tu, yeah him. I've reject him. I'm sorry. I know you're dissapointed with me but erghh that's the best. Plus, ada orang bercerita kau ni kuat game perempuan ya? Alahai, tak ku sangka akan ku jumpa lagi lelaki sebegini rupa. Aku ingat dah tak akan jumpa dah. Hmm kecewa jatuh tangga aku kat situ :'( Tak guna agaknya kau ni. Kawan kau sendiri kata "aku suka Mira buat macam tu dekat dia" Umphh pun boleh la hah. Layak agak nya kau kena mcm ni dengan aku. Tu la, jangan suka game orang. One day kena batang hidung sendiri. Okay? Kak Limah nasihat je.

Now, i've my own artist. I don't need Bruno Mars anymore because i have mine already. Auwmm he's a drummer, i loveeeeee that hehe. He sing to me every night, he lullaby me, he comfort me all the times, his every single text really sweet. Auwmm thank you :') Maybe his age make me feel comfortable with him. He's two years much older than me but i don't think that's a boundary for us :) Thanks for singing "Your Guardian Angel" to me every night before i sleep :') He says "you're my magnet bby" auww hehe.

Thanks Allah for a better March :)

*Sepah, i'm sorry for what i've done.

*AAHI, thanks for the time we have spent together :')

*I wish he would realize his mistakes and 'show' me that he is truly sorry, instead of just saying it.

Let's tear me apart,

2011-03-02T13:26:00.005+08:00

* Picture from Feb, i know i'm cool like this. Please don't be jealous.

# Hello March. Hoping for a better month compare to Feb. Because for me Feb is much sucks compare to Jan. Don't ask me why, let me keep it to myself. At last, a not enough 30 days of month just ended and started with a 31 days of March. Hello once again to March.

# I don't love my job anymore. Like seriously. I'm damn tired with all the chores. Idky. I'm gonna quit soon. Yeayyy me. I'm waiting for them to pay my salary, so that i can use all them up. Kikiki. Can't wait but actually i don't have anything to buy. Ahah.

# In Feb, i got to know so many peeps. In fact, i'm so easy going with them :') I had fun when i'm with them. Thanks guys for making my day everyday. Auwmm. Especially teman tv, Nana and Fiqa. Tak ada korang, habis menyangap haha.

# In Feb too, my ex come back in my life. My long lost ex boyf. He said he want to get close with me, but idk. I don't feel the same way too. Sorry. He came to meet me almost everyday, and all my friends macam dah freak out gila haha. "Dah kenapa kan mamat ni?" Lol. Idk laaaaa, chill je. He got girlf dah pun. I wonder why he come back in fact he got girlf. And they're 5months already. Guys, for God's sake i don't understand you guys. Stop playing with girls' heart if you don't want to appreciate them. Take note of what i said. I know how they feel, because that's what i feel now. If you truly love someone, you can never love another.

# Result gonna come out soon. Shaitt. I'm not ready, in fact i have warned my mom first haha. "Ma, you dont expect anything from me kay?" Ahaha. Ma just laugh at me. Haish, i'm serious ma. I'm afraid of ma result. I don't did well on SPM. Put the blame on me for thinking so much thing. Peeps around me on that time drive me crazy, thank you guys. Thanks for make me messed. Love it so much.

# I'm tired with all these shit. Please leave me alone. Seronok rasa nya buat orang rasa sakit hati kan? Being heartless, it's so damn nice the feeling? I wnat to be like that. Like you, being heartless. Sure it's nice because you're fine being heartless to me. Right? :') No need to care about others feeling, i want to be like that. I'm tired of take care others feeling, while them? Hurt me like i'm nothing. Oh God, me "love" that so much. Thank you. I'm tired with all these shit. "Please don't cry like you always do, okay?" - said Atiq to me. Thanks :')

# The pain is back. It's bleed again. Lama menghilang, sekarang kembali. Oh damn. I was so shocked last night when i get to know it. And the stupidest thing is i told someone that i should not. Why? Because he won't care. That's the stupidest thing of me :) Sorry for being stupid to you. I told ma and Ma ask me to meet doctor tomorrow. So, tomorrow need to go to hospital. Oh my "fave" place. Meeting my "fave" peep. Oh damn. I hate it! Still don't know what time is my appointment ouchh hopefully it's not early in the morning. So lazy to wake up early. I'm damn tired nowadays. Lack of rest.

# I don't spend my money well now. I spend more on tv. Rarely eat, and i lose 3kg in one month. Cool enuff right? I know i'm cool like that. Stupid me cause losing my weight. I thought of gaining weight, and at last i lost 3kg. Damn! I want my 3kg back, at least. I'm so underweight and can you imagine what happen to me when i lost my 3kg? Oh shaittt! I want my 3kg -_________-"

# Oh i got to know that you've met her mom yeah? Ouch, so sweet. It was back in Jan right? Auwwwww, i'm so happy for you guys. Meaning that her mom approve you? Auww. What about your mom? I bet she approve her too aite? Auw so sweet la both of you. Congrats :)) I was so touched when i got to know that till i can't control my tears. Congrats again. Hopefully both of you will last long. HA-HA.

# Me love Suatu Pernah by Fynn Jamal. I know that song from Leyaa's blog. Auw love that song la dik, haha. Damn meaningful aite? I know you know what i mean. Kikiki. The lyrics are so deep, very meaningful. Eh dengar lagu Memori Berkasih by Achik and Nana pun makan dalam. Thanks to Wa and Fiqa la kan for introduce that song to me, haha now i'm so addicted to that song. Lol.

* Jar of heart by Christina Perri.

Somebody's me,

2011-02-24T12:10:00.002+08:00

Minggu ni minggu mengenang kenangan silam ke apa doh? Ahaha. Serious shit. I received a lot of surprised this week. Ahaha. Zai asked me for an apologize for did wrongs to me back in form 3. That's damn funny kayh. Frankly speaking, aku terasa hati masa form 3 dulu. Dengan mulut orang lagi aku kena tahan, okay. Lek je dah lepas kan.

Then proceed with Shauqie, the same thing happened. He asked for an apologize for did wrongs to me too. Okay, dengan kau pun aku sakit hati. Jujur cakap la kan. Apa jadi form 4 tu memang sial. Tak pernah pernah aku kena macam tu. Okay? Dah habis.

Oh that guy that really looks like F, uhh uhh~ i got to know his name already and and i got a chance to talk to him. AND i know where he works at. Hihihi. Hari hari la nak pergi situ ahha. Auwmmmmmmmmm~ But dia ada la beza kan dengan F. In fact, nama and suara pun lain :')

#umarhariz

@beckyomama @MiraRAWR @Izzahsaleh I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH #thatswhyyourmyex

Ahah stupid Umar, that's why you are my ex.

Why you always making me cry?

2011-02-15T13:04:00.006+08:00

What a bad beginning for this week. Like seriously. Uhhhh~ Shit is revolving around me and i hate it. All i can do is raise my hand and pray to God, i can handle all this. Amin. I hate when things getting harder. There's nothing that you can do alone in this world. Trust me. How to solve a thing if there's only one party working on it while the other party didn't show any effort? Tell me. How things can be better? Tell me, show me.

*Britney sing it like wow, love it because of the beat but when this guy did a cover on this song. He make it like a sad song. Love it!

* Me love this song so much. It holds tons of memories. Love either Nelly sing it or this both youtube-artist.

Listen to the songs and you'll know what i'm trying to say. Like what you said, jangan ikut kata hati sangat. But pardon me, that's how i live. I listen what my heart says, because life is only once and we can never turn back. I dont want to regret in the other day. Wake up with a smile, no regret. Take note in what i say, think over it. Sometimes, we shouldn't listen to what our heart says but most of the times i'll listen to whatever my heart says. Peeps might think i'm stupid because didn't think well before making a decision, well you guys are please to say whatever you guys want. And me don't give a damn :) Don't like me, kayh that's your problem.

I try so hard to be strong but that's the hardest thing to do. For me, for now. I give you everything i have and you toss it in a trash, yes you did.

*I'm so tired of pretending everything is okay. My tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.

#tobethruth

2011-02-10T17:02:00.002+08:00

Someone asked me if I still loved you. I walked away and closed my eyes and whispered "I do, but I know I shouldn't."
Sometimes I'm afraid to be happy, because every time I'm happy. Something goes wrong and hurts me.
It takes a strong person to say sorry, and an even stronger person to forgive.
You know whats unfair? Being lied to when you've been nice to someone.
1 day, love & friendship met. Love asked, Why do u exist when I already exist? Friendship smiled & said,to put a smile where u leave tears.
When someone is so sweet to you, don't expect that they will be like that all the time because even the sweetest chocolate expires.
The love that lasts the longest is the love that can never be.

Tears stream down,

2011-02-10T13:41:00.007+08:00

Adik change her school. I spend my time with her last week. Teman her to Sunway Pyramid for just two of us, watching movie, loiter around, had lunch at BK, early dinner at SR. Wohoo so full that day. That's the only thing i can give her, happiness in one day. We're not really close so we don't have much memories together. Take a good care of yourself there, do miss me because i miss you. In fact, my tears stream down while writing this. I miss chu. No one to bully anymore T.T hihi just kidding. I know you're doing fine there because you're different with me, Abang and Baby. We all are so anak Mama. Can't be apart from Mama. Ahah. Not like you.

Me: Ma, adik okay ke kat sana?

Ma: Okay, dia kan masuk kandang kambing mengembek, masuk kandang lembu menguak.

My life turn upside down like uhh-uhh. But so far i can handle it. Thank to Allah. Well, hari hari dengar lagu Maher Zain so insaf la hari hari. Lol. So out of topic you know.

Okay, i found someone really looks like him. Wait, read my lips, REALLY, EXACTLY like him. Okay habis. But that guy really does. The only different between them, uhh let it be a secret. Hari hari la nak break situ, waiting for that guy. Sebulan lebih dah tak nampak muka tu, semalam nampak. Omg, really make my heart drools ! Okay habis.

OMG! Next monday, uhh sedih :'( Okay dah.

JRA - Handle with care and Coldplay - Fix you. Auwmmmm. Lovely song.

When i says, "I miss you" no one in this world can miss you more than that. I promise you.

Sicky me,

2011-01-29T14:43:00.004+08:00

Yesterday after the whole day can't wake up, i went to KPJ Selangor for a check up. Masuk kereta terus baring, while registration i just sit down while listening to few songs. Then there's one nurse call my name. Auwm laki tau, handsome gilo! Serious, nama dia Nik. He's the one who check my BP, my body temp and so on. Done with the basic check up, my BP was fine, it just my heart beat are bit faster and my body temp is 38.8. Mama dah freak out gilo since i sampai muntah muntah and whatsoever the night before. Then masuk jumpa doctor and bla bla doctor muka risau kenapa entah. Then dia nak inject, ah sorry. Memang tak dapat la kau nak inject aku weh. At last, she gave up and ask me to come back if situation getting worst. Ubat memang sumpah banyak gila babi dia bagi. And aku dah tak terkira berapa banyak ubat aku dah buang :) This is me. I hate medicines.

Last night i think my body temp reach 40, cause i had a really bad headache. Can't stop crying, biasa la Mira kan. Kerja yang dia pro nangis la kan. But seriously malam semalam memang jalan pun macam orang mabuk. Sewel agaknya.

Okay please, i wanna get well soon. Penat tidur satu hari, can't do anything sebab tak larat. Ni pun blogging via phone dengan terbaring je -_-"

H1N1's symptoms,

2011-01-28T10:35:00.003+08:00

Now, i'm apart, far apart from the most two important guys in my life. Be strong Mira. They went away at the same time. I still can remember that day. Thank you so much guys.

I'm supposed off to work today, morning shift. But last night, at work me and Nana had a very bad sore throat. We cough like we gonna die at that times. Ahha seriously! We also lost our voice, don't know why. Once i reached home, i try to eat honey, i thought everything gonna be okay when i wake up the next morning. Damn it's not like what i'm hoping. I wake up at 4am, and threw up. Ish i hate to throw up! Seriously! Can't sleep last night, ya Allah.

I text Nana, and she said she's having the same experience. What's up with us huh?! So cuak you know. One of my friend cakap, the symptoms that i'm having now is H1N1's symptoms and he's so gelabah like i'm gonna die ahha. Chill kayh? I'm fine, still can blogging while having a cup of hot tea. Ahaha. Then there's another friend said because i "tv" so much. Lol, he said he gonna slap me if he found me "tv" again. Sho funny you.

Lucky me !

2011-01-24T23:25:00.004+08:00

Thank to Allah. Hehe i got job already :) Hmmmmmmmm suka kita. Hehe at least i can release my burden for the time being. They salary that they offered is more than i'm expecting. Okay la tu kan. Wish me luck for that. Harap harap tak kerja enam hari lagi. Hehe.

My hair is getting long. I want to cut my hair soon. Ghimas okay, dah la sikat rambut pun malas. My hair getting rosak, shampoo pun malas. So sad la you Mira -_-"

Aku faham mesej tu. Faham. Cool like that. Okay jaga diri semua. Kbai.

Penganggur berjaya,

2011-01-24T00:01:00.004+08:00

*Tu gmbr latest. 3rd Jan hr tu ambil. Tak payah tegur. Aku tahu tembam. Kau jealous cakap.

Two weeks being penganggur is so boring. Seriously. Should find a job. I found a job. Ada orang suruh ajar tuition. Ahah tapi tu tak sure lagi la kan. I'm-not-really-good-in-studies. Eh bukan not-really-good but NOT GOOD. Silap type tadi. Well, wish me luck. Wish me dapat job offer yang okay. But dalam hati nak sangat further study sekarang. Wish can get onto college now. Dayyum! Cepat habis, cepat belajar, cepat pandai, cepat lupa masalah.

Now i've short listed kan what course to take after get my SPM result. So-berangan. I know. Tak apa, pasang angan-angan dulu. InsyaAllah jadi kenyataan. Aiceh! Doakan la haha. Tadi pun dah go through few college and most of them are private ones -_-" Shaitttt. Should do just in IPTA. Lol. Budget ah mak bapak aku kaya habis nak hantar aku private college. But i'm attracted to do this one course, around 3 months je buat persediaan kat sini then terus fly overseas. Serious quite interested in that field. There's one more, one more course. But in Malaysia, that course baru nak berkembang. And i need to have Degree and so on baru laku nak kerja. If not, kerja cincai je. Susah kottttttttttttttt. But if result teruk sangat, tak dapat mana-mana. Last choice, masuk KPJ College dengan Mai. Okay juga actually. Since got benefit meh. Ahaha :DD Okay dah tak payah nak berangan banyak sangat, angan-angan mak jenin betul.

Sekarang tiba masa aku tuai anggur aku. Aku nak buka kilang wine. Please be jealous. Confirm wine aku terbaik dari ladang. Confirmmmmmmmmmmmm ah ahha. Rancak sekarang dengan Tiesto, bukan main lagi. Cuba dengar lagu Sunny Sweeney satu kali. From a table away. Sedih tau, kbai.

Tragedi 16th Sept 2010,

2011-01-16T23:29:00.010+08:00

"Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri. Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi."

Okay. Ada benda ingin gua luah. Gua dah tak ada siapa. Gua rasa, blog tempat gua meluah rasa. Nak harapkan Alya kembali dari Selama, Perak, mahu aku mati sebelum sempat berbicara. Siapa tahu. Ya dak? Pelbagai perasan bercampur baur ketika gua hendak mula menaip. Tangan menggigil, sejuk gelabah entah apa apa. Paip air yang longgar tetap mengalir. Habis banjir bilik tadi. Penat mengelap. Haih.

Okay. Buat masa sekarang, perasan gua, hati gua, jiwa gua dah pecah hancur punah rabak dan seangkatan dengan nya. Usah di tanya mengapa. Segala punca biar gua simpan sendiri. Cuma gua cukup tak sangka benda gua di tipu, di kenakan, di mainkan hidup-hidup begini. Entah mengapa selama ni gua tak sedar akan semua ini. Silap gua. Silap besar di situ.

Mungkin gua terlalu mudah untuk diperkotak-katikkan oleh orang. Mungkin gua begitu mudah untuk ditendang ke sana ke mari tak ubah ibarat bola. Sungguh sadis. Gua tak sangka, sampai ke tahap ini gua di layan. Sungguh gua tak sangka. For God's sake! Tak apa, teruskan dengan permainan korang tendang aku ke sana ke mari okay? Aku kan budak tak ada perasaan, suka cakap lepas. Tak pernah fikir orang kiri kanan yang terasa dengan perlakuan gua. Itu gua kalau nak tahu. Perempuan yang pentingkan diri katanya. Teruskan. Teruskan bersorak gembira.

Lepas ni, usah hiraukan gua. Jaga hati manis lu yang sudah lu hadiah kan sehelai tee yang cantik. Sungguh cantik, tidak dinafikan :) Masih terngiang-ngiang kata-kata lu yang menyatakan dengan sesungguhnya tidak akan memberi apa-apa. Gua masih ingat. Text masih gua simpan. Nak tengok boleh, nanti gua forward kat lu okay? Tak apa credit habis, setakat 1cent per text apa la sangat nak dibanding kan dengan hati yang punah :)

Usah ucap kata keramat kalau itu sebenarnya bukan dari hati lu. Usah sedapkan hati gua. Oh berbual mengenai "sedapkan hati". Ah masih gua ingat. "Saja je nak sedapkan hati dia." Oh iya? Tak sangka. Dalam diam kau sedapkan hati dia, sudah 4 bulan juga kau "sedapkan" hati aku :) Fair la tu kan? Dua dua hati sedap. Yummayh! Baru fair katanya.

Depresi mulai menghantui diri. Tak usah nak ber hu-ha-hu-ha menyedapkan hati Mira. Balik rumah sama juga. Hati yang punah tu tetap terasa pedihnya. Please be jealous others. Ciggies gonna be my new bestfriend. Selama ni friend je, now aku up status kau jadi bestfriend. Haha. Sila cemburu. Ignore me. Ignorance is your new bestfriend. Eh bukan Ignorance, tapi hati manis la. Silap silap. Lupa kau ada hati manis. Ish. Selamat bergembira. Selamat bersorak. Selamat berbahagia.

Oh ya. Maaf buat Adik Alia. "Takde siapa boleh jadi kakak ipar aku selain kau!". Mungkin bait-bait keramat kau tak dapat aku jadikan kenyataan. Seribu maaf disitu. Sorry kayh dik. You always one of the best sistah. For God's sake.

Tengah aku type ni, tangan aku non-stop menggigil sejuk. Air paip tetap mengalir. Tahniah atas kemenangan anda. Maybe i forgot to avoid when peeps putting shits on me. My bad.

Thanks for everything. Keep on smiling because the smile is looks better on you. Not on me. Ha-ha. Kthnxbai. I'm so not in a good mood. Let's find some coke. Oh note for you, no need to stalk me anymore. You got what you want. You got what i need to keep on survive. Hope you happy! Bai. Eh, baru aku perasan dah genap empat bulan. WOW! TAHNIAH :))

That's why i love you,

2011-01-15T02:11:00.005+08:00

Dulu time mula-mula jumpa, you berlagak cool.

That's why i love you.

Dulu masa mula-mula kenal. Dua dua ego. Tak nak kalah.

That's why i love you.

You suka marah marah i. Sekarang pun.

That's why i love you.

Kita selalu gaduh. Gaduh benda kecil pun ada. Lama pula tu.

That's why i love you.

You know how to comfort me during my hard times.

That's why i love you.

You suka merajuk. Comel. I suka.

That's why i love you.

I never claims you handsome kan boy? Takpe.

That's why i love you.

You will hold my hand if we go out together. Make me feel secured.

That's why i love you.

I love when you kiss my forehead at the ends of our meeting.

That's why i love you.

Ramai orang cakap, kita tak suits together.

That's why i love you.

But lagi ramai kata, kita suits together.

That's why i love you.

How bad you treat me, i don't mind.

That's why i love you.

Kalau text, bila mood kau gedik haish cairrrrrr.

That's why i love you.

Bila otp, bila tiba mood gedik kita. Omg geram aku!

That's why i love you.

You je boyf yang pernah jumpa i time i tak mandi.

That's why i love you.

You suka belasah i. Sakit tahu? Takpe.

That's why i love you.

You fulfill almost all my wishlist.

That's why i love you.

You're just too sweet for me.

That's why i love you.

Walaupun kadang-kadang you kasar dgn i, takpe.

That's why i love you.

With you, i-am-what-i-am.

That's why i love you.

You pernah datang jumpa i pakai baju melayu.

That's why i love you.

Kita suka share air tembikai laici.

That's why i love you.

You suka kata i busuk walaupun i baru lepas mandi.

That's why i love you.

You tak botak sebab i tak suka.

That's why i love you.

Banyak benda you dah buat untuk i.

That's why i love you.

You garang. Tapi ada time you manja.

That's why i love you.

I like everything about you. Even your imperfections.

That's why i love you.

* Remember this pic? Hihi idk what's up with us :')

Je t'aime ♥

Masalah dunia, masalah peribadi

2011-01-13T22:55:00.005+08:00

Nana is being so gay right now. She's so obsess with me till she used my picture as her default. Ahaha i know she love me too much. I know about it Nana ;p Thanks kayh Nana cause love me till this much. Ohh i'm so touched. Hekhek. Disebabkan Nana use my pic as her default, so i use the same pic. Cool tak? Ahaha habis semua orang confused :D I love that. Perangai masing masing macam seytans. MACAM je okay. Tak seytans lagi.

Okay. Ada satu benda buat aku cuak. Tadi petang aku lepak dgn kawan kawan aku. And tidak diduga. Ex aku pun ada. Smlm birthday dia, i wish him. Then dia call, kejap je la. Fine. Free call kan, tk kisah la. Borak apa je pun. Then he claims that he stalk my fb. Look into my pics everytime he online. Kau tak rasa seram ke? Padahal ada girlfriend tu. Punya bunga bunga cinta kat fesbuk. Gua sikit tak cemburu. Aku ingat dia main main, sekali tu. Tengah tengah lepak, dia cakap macam ni, "i on malam td, i tgk pics you. semua". Aku pun terus la buat muka macam cicak berak kapur en. Ya la. Aku ingat main main. Rupa rupanya for real. And he save my pic in his phone. Pergh gila pejuang berani mati mamat ni. Adakah gulpren nya tidak melihat telefon bimbitnya? Fuh mati aku. Patut la, ada orang cakap gulpren dia jealous dengan aku. Halamak, sorry kayh kak. Aku sikit pun tak ber-contact, berjumpa atau ber apa-apa dengan balakssss you. And gua sikit pun tidak tercalit rasa nak bopren kau balik. If i really want him, i won't ditch him before. Take note there. Treat him nicely. I pray for both of you. Jangan risau. Aku dah ada cinta mati aku. Tak nak cinta lain. Aiceh.

* Antara ayat ayat terakhir aku sangat bunga bunga. Okay. You can say whatever you want. But i really meant it.

Okay sambung. Aku ada lagi satu masalah. Okay there's on guy. Dulu aku saja main main cakap dengan Nana aku suka dia sebab dia sumpah kelakar, macam pondan cara dia haha. Dia kawan Nana. Dia quite rapat dengan Nana. Then one day dia cakap dengan Nana dia suka aku. Okay. Then Nana biol, pergi cakap kat mamat tu aku suka dia -_________-" Pun boleh la hah kan. Since that dia rajin la contact aku, call call bagai. Mula mula macam okay je. Then lama lama dia jadi annoying. Layan ramai gila babes. Apa tu? Hah gua dah start panas dekat situ. Then gua bla, tak nak ikut lagi game dia. Tak lama lepas tu, gua dengar dia dah couple. Okay, heran plak aku. Lepas tu start cari aku balik. After dah break ni lagi la hah. Menggagau cari aku macam haram. Call aku berpuluh puluh kali, even aku reject pun still call. Text aku lagi, macam bodoh mamat ni. Lepas tu dah la bukan call biasa, call mesti buat video call. Harammm apa kau nak la sial? Aku panas ah ni. Aku dah sound sekali pun tk faham bahasa still call call. Kimakss. Idk what else to do to get make him out of my life. Call aku dah la 2-3-4 pagi. Pukul 8-9 pagi. Gila agaknya budak ni. Aku sampai tahap nak divert call mamat ni to ehem ehem numb's. Sebab dah rimas sangat. Sayang seribu kali sayang, sony kalau divert call, habis SEMUA call kena divert -_-"

*Aku rasa aku perlukan bonzer nak bantai mamat psiko ni. Anyone boleh membantu? Hulur kan tangan, ringankan beban. Banyak aku mencarut sebab kau.

I think, i need therapy. I just want a therapy. I want to be happy like how i am last week. But it seems like it's so hard to make it real if kita bertepuk sebelah tangan. Ya dak? Tidak mengapa la. Hati kata, "Allah have something better for you in future". InsyaAllah, amin :') *kesat air mata*

Mari belajar mengenal huruf,

2011-01-13T12:49:00.005+08:00

1. A is for age:

2011 tolak dengan 1993. If kau terror, kau dapat jawapan.

2. B is for beer of choice:
Coke please. Extra sugar kayh.

3. C is for what you can't wait for right now:
Tak rasa eksaited apa sekarang. Perasaan gua mati.

4. D is for your dog's name:
Doggie. Comel kan nama anjing aku? Doggie aahhh ahhh doggie! *damn stupid*

5. E is for essential item you use everyday:
Mouth and nose. Bernafas dan bercakap makan minum.
6. F is for favorite TV show at the moment:
Tidak ada. Tengok tv pun jarang sekali.

7. G is for favorite game:
Apakah kau ni? I hate games.

8. H is for Home town:
Shah Alam Bandar Anggerik. So sweet sampai sekolah aku penuh dengan Orkid.

9. I is for instruments you play:
Instrument apa kau nak? Meh aku cuba. Aku tak ada certificate mengatakan aku terror main.

10. J is for favorite juice:
Tembikai laici. Ehem ehem. Eh terbatuk pula. Maaf.

11. K is for whose butt you'd like to kick:
Ada la sorang tu. Too sensitive to put his/her name here. HEHEHE.

12. L is for last food you ate:
Forgot but what i can remember is i ate it at Only Noodle, SACC Mall.

13. M is for marriage:
I wanna get married. That's for sure. Who's the partner, let Allah make it if he really meant for me. You know who you are.

14. N is for your name:
Nur 'Amirah Kamarul Azlan. Cahaya Ketua Puteri. HAHAHA.

15. O is for overnight hospital stays:
Masa kecil kecil. Sakit teruk, tenat macam nak mati dah.

16. P is for people you can't live without: Family, friends and him for sure.

17. Q is for quote:
Just follow whatever your heart says. Make it real. Don't regret on the other day.

18. R is for Biggest Regret:
Diam la. Malas aku nak jawab.

19. S is for status: Totally taken. Fullstop. Don't ask by who because all of us are His belongings.

20. T is for time you woke up today:
9.07am cause someone yang tak faham bahasa call me. Then i sleep back and wake up at 11something cause big brahh give me a call and wake me up. Haha thanks yeah.
21. U is for underwear you have on now:
Lupa la brand apa colour apa semua. Mind to check it for me? Fak youuuu ..|..

22. V is for vegetable you love:
Lobak, kubis, terung, tomato, kangkung, pucuk paku, pucuk ubi. Alahai aku ni bukan pencinta sayuran.

23. W is for worst habit:
Entah, aku sendiri pun tak tahu either it's a bad habit or not haha.

24. X is for x-rays you've had: Last year, during form five. Gua kena x-ray satu badan. X-ray, ultrasound semua kena buat. Silap tak buat MRI sekali.

25. Y is for yummy food you ate today?:
Nak makan apa? Baru bangun kot. Gosok gigi je dah, jengah makanan belum.

26. Z is for the zodiac sign:
Taurus. Ehem ehem. Ada apa apa ke?

Enjoy your life while you can.

Okay, this is me. The new me, the latest me. First pic for 2011. So sweet aite? Fak you sweet -_-" Dikala bosan melanda, tiada apa yang hendak dilakukan. Maka saya menggunakan camera saya yang hasilnya macam DSLR *aku bangga* meskipun camera tu murah. But tadaaaaaaaaaaaa, see the hasil? I love it. Aku tk edit pun gmbr ni. Just edit letak tulisan. That's all.

Keep me amazed,

2011-01-11T12:00:00.004+08:00

The last two lines in this lyrics are so okay can't be describe in words.When your girl has Taylor Swift lyrics as her status, you know you’re either doing something very right, or something very wrong. Think about it.

*Baca blog kak eyka ni, sooooooo makan dalam.*Perasaan gua sikit sebanyak terhiris dengan perlakuan lu. Kthnxbai.

2011-01-11T00:30:00.003+08:00

Random things #1:

Hari tu masa aku demam terlentang, sakit perut bagai semua. I can't stand on my own. All i can do is just lay down. The most memorable part is when dad willing to feed me. So sweet aite? I know. I know i'm sho manja. That's what he call me, "manja". Always be. Idk what's up with daddy nowadays. He's getting nicer, and nicer to me. Glad to have that hee.

Random things #2:

Aku nak behenti kerja. Usah tanya kenapa. Aku jadi seram nak kerja.

Random things #3:

Aku nak ambil lesen cepat cepat. Aku nak belajar bawa kereta bersungguh sungguh sampai lulus dengan kertas berwarna warna. *pass with flying of colours* Sho sweet. So that later i can race on the road with mummy viva. Tak kan nak race bawa Peugeot bapak aku tu kan. Seram aku.

Random things #4:

I'm getting tired with all the fake peeps around me. Cilaka. Tak ku sangka bala yang menimpa pada 2010 tetap menjelma pada 2011. Ya Allah, please take away this bala. Can't handle it anymore. Cukup la tahun 2010 tu boleh digelar sebagai tahun menangis. Aku tak nak sejarah berulang. Cukup cukup la. Penat dah rasanya. Eye bag kian lama kian comel membesar. Dengan menangis nya, dengan tak cukup tidur nya. Dang! -_-"

Random things #5:

Aku tiba-tiba rasa macam nak belajar jauh jauh. Doakan aku dapat scholarship weh! Aku nak belajar jauh jauh. Jauh sangat! Jauh sampai tahap aku tak kenal sorang pun kat tempat belajar baru aku tu. Aku takut kalau ada yang aku kenal, benda benda lama jadi balik. You know. I hope i can handle it when the time comes. Aku pergi jauh jauh, kalau sudi ikat. Sure tak akan lari. One day i'll come back and make you proud of me. InsyaAllah.

Random things #6:

I hate facebook so much. That's for sure. I got my own reasons why. Banyak sebenarnya. Sikit sikit menjatuhkan orang doh fb ni. Aku tikam bertubi tubi tahu la. Geram nya aku! Okay, sabar. I love burung biru. Can't tweet from anywhere with only 1cent per text ahhaha. Promote @gladlycastsms jap. @gladlycastsms should give credits to me ;p

Random things #7:

Aku rasa aku nak jadi cikgu tuition. Bukan dekat tuition centre but i'm gonna do it as home tuition. Ada tak siapa siapa nak? *sure semua taknak tengok orang mengajar nya aku, orang tak berwawasan -_-"* Uwaaa sedihnya! But seriously i think i can only do that. In fact got experience already. Ajar orang last year. Aiceh even not so really teaching but sort of what. Haha tak nak kalah en ;p Okay, siapa nak just leave a msg here or tweet me, aiceh ;p *PERASAN*

Random things #8:

I want big cake with ma face printed on it for my birthday, or a lot of cupcakes with full of many decorations, ice cream here and there, muahahaha. Please! I want bears too, auwwm but having all my love ones on my birthday is more that enough actually. I'm not asking much, *nampak sangat tipu haha*

Random things #9:

I'm still craving for that grey shoes. Shaittt! Wanna it so bad! And that black plain flat. It's really comfortable and nice i tell you! Seriously! Come here $$$ come to mummy! Ahaha. Now ada duit pun cukup lepas lepak 2-3 kali je. Sedih tau. Nak pergi concert Secondhand Serenade pun tak lepas. So sad :'(

Random things #10:

Aku nak lepak dengan kawan kawan lama. Kawan kawan lama yang sedahulunya terperap dalam asrama. Lama tak jumpa. Rindu. Ada juga ni hah tak henti-henti call ajak melepak. Aku je malas, tak bernafsu nak lepak setakat berdua. Macam seram je nak lepak berdua dengan budak ni. Muahaha. Lepak ramai ramai aku okay, baru best. Auwmm! Seronok hu-ha-hu-ha. Entah apa dapat pun tak tahu haha. Aku rindu cousin cousin aku, i know it sound so cliche but seriously i do. Aku rindu untuk balik kampung kumpul ramai ramai. Rindu Milo panas Faiz, rindu lepak malam malam bergosip, tengok bola, baring ramai ramai rebut bantal, ahha rinduuuuuuuuuu! Damn!

Random things #11:

For this 2011, i'm working on certain things. Working to stop on that, start on this, keep on that, ahah so many things in my mind. So many things that i've plan to achieve. I wish that i can make it. InsyaAllah, if God willings. Doa doa la dapat buat. Amin, slow slow okay. Pelan pelan kayuh. Sikit sikit, lama lama jadi bukit. Tak mustahil.

Random things #12:

Stop being fake la. Tolong la. Penat la macam ni. The club can't handle you right now. They're so busy handling other peeps. Please understand. Jangan nak buat cerita pusing-pusing. Aku yang penat. Berapa kali u-turn dah kau ni. Bila nak sampai ke puncak nya? Kalau memang tak akan sampai ke puncak, bg tahu awal awal. Senang. Boleh aku duduk rumah goyang kaki. Tak payah penat lelah ikut kau u-turn. Aku ni semput, walaupun tak teruk. Tapi penyakit semput tu tetap ada. Tak kesian ke? -_-" Nak tunggu aku semput baru nak berhenti ke apa kau ni? Ahah aku lari keliling padang confirm semput. *sangat lari topik*

Random things #14:

Nana cakap harga rokok nak naik lagi. Muahaha habis la. Cepat beli stock banyak banyak sebelum naik harga this April. Ahah mahu masuk angin rokok kau. Give me some ciggies. Please please please! Lol. What's the crap i'm talking about? Biol dah agaknya ni -_-" No more ciggies, enuff said.

*“I still love you with all the little pieces of my heart that you left,but don’t take them it’s the only thing I have that still has your name on it.”

Shitty talks crap,

2011-01-09T11:49:00.004+08:00

Random things #1:

First of all, jap nak wish new year jap. Still can right? Still early maa. First week of the new year muahah. Okay selamat tahun baru semua. Biasa nya tahun baru semua benda nak baru, especially budak sekolah. Standard. Aku dulu macam tu juga, batak. Hujung tahun keluar dengan kawan beli kasut, bag semua. Kelakar pun ada. Rindu. Permulaan tahun baru 2011 aku masih dengan barang barang lama, orang lama. Tak perlu barang serta orang baru. Orang lama cukup buat aku gembira. Sambut new year agak sedih. Siang lepak dekat mamak sampai tengahari bersama classmates. Petang lepak bersama dua orang tercinta. Malam buat hal sendiri dalam bilik. Cool yaw! I know.

Random things #2:

Okay, dah seminggu Alya pergi PLKN. Durra dah pergi 4days. Rindu serindu rindu nya dekat derang. Durra tak bawa phone, gila hati kental tak bawa phone. Tak rindu Monster ke? Ahah Alya pun call aku tau. Rindu. Mana ada dah orang nak otp dengan aku all the times. Aku pun mana lepak dah skrg. Gila life-less sial. Redha ah. Nak buat macam mana. Orang tu pun dah ada kat Selama.

Random things #3:

Aku dah start kerja. Tak payah tanya la kerja mana. Simple kerja. Kerja ikut shift. Okay la. Tapi aku bosan juga kadang kadang. Kena kacau macam hape je. Sangat tidak berwawasan mereka ini. Part yang kelakar bila hari hari aku dapat gula gula dari orang yang berbeza. Ahaha shoooo funny you know. Cuba la bagi benda lain. Ini gula gula. Alahai, kau tak cukup manis la tu nak bagi aku gula gula. Ahah sorry, no times to layan u olls okayyyyyy. Eh eh, i dah ada EPF acc tau ;p Bangga tu ahahhha.

Random things #4:

Perut aku dah mula buat perangai lama. Dah 3 hari dah ni aku bergaduh dengan perut aku. Dan tiga hari juga la aku makan aku keluarkan balik. Jyeahh sungguh "indah" dunia ini ku rasakan. Fakyouuu. Sumpah aku penat dah ni nak keluar balik apa aku makan. Cepat la okay perut oi. Jangan la ajak aku bergaduh lagi. Aku tak larat sangat dah ni.

Random things #5:

Awak, don't stop to wake me up everyday. Don't stop to cherish my day. Can you? Penat la fikir hari hari pasal you're going away. Can't take it. Haish. Why have to be like this. Tak cukewww taww. Benci iteww. Later tak ada orang dah nak memekak kat aku haih. Okay dah diam la Mira. Stop it -_-" Ahaha. I'm waiting for the ADTR tee okiess. Wanna it so bad. Don't let me wait like i wait for the jersey. So long you know!

Random things #6:

Hate to admit this. But ... yeah. I miss school's life. Tu la, masa pakai baju putih kain biru cair hodoh tu batak nak keluar sekolah cepat. Now dah keluar sekolah sumpah rindu. Serious rindu roti koperasi, wantan tomyam kantin, kacau orang kat sekolah, menjerit jerit from block E to A, merayap satu sekolah, kacau cikgu dekat staff room, curi curi wifi staff room, lepak dekat lorong kerjaya bersama all my perdanarians. All the perdanarians girls rehat sama sama tahu. Suweet tak we guys? I know we suweet like that. Don't be jealous, we're like family olredi. Love you guys sho much :-*

Random things #7:

Okay, esok 10 Jan 2011 dah boleh mula apply for UPU. And i'm still stuck which course to choose. Can someone guide me? Please! My dad want me to take Pharmacy or Physiotherapy. I'm not really good in Biology. I prefer Physics and Chemistry. But i love Psychological. My tuition teacher ask me to take anything that connecting with Physics and Chemistry. Yeah, i've been thinking the same thing. Really don't want to involve with Bio's world. Pleaseeeeeeeeeee. But i love designing? Like interior designer or landscape will be nice. Don't you feel the same thing? Eventhough Daddy don't mind if i take mas

s comm but mass comm course is not in my list. Absolutely won't take it.

*All the random things i wrote is so dumb ass. Don't know why i wrote it and why i'm posting it here. So life-less la you Mira after school.

* I know i look chubby. So what? Kthanxbai.

Bila gua bosan,

2011-01-02T13:59:00.002+08:00

Name: Mira Azlan cukup.
Birthday: Enam haribulan lima.
Birthplace: Kuala Lumpur penuh sesak.
Current Location: Shah Alam penuh manusia.
Eye Color: Hitam yang tak bersinar.
Hair Color: Hitam pekat macam bontot kuali.
Height: Pendek macam pendekar.
Right Handed or Left Handed: Kanan dan kiri.
Your Heritage: Kau rasa?

The Shoes You Wore Today: My greeny Everlast flat.
Your Weakness: Kau gila ke aku nak cerita kat sini? Mati aku musuh aku serang hendap nanti.
Your Fears: Currently, dia pergi PLKN :'(
Your Perfect Pizza: Add on stuff crust (Y)
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Dapat result SPM bagus, dapat scholarship.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Bodoh, Haha

Thoughts First Waking Up: Aku mengantuk.
Your Best Physical Feature: Orang kata kening aku dengan pipi aku. Kening je kot.
Your Bedtime: Ikut suka mak tiri aku la.
Your Most Missed Memory: My childhood memories. Harap maklum aku ni hilang ingatan.
Pepsi or Coke: COKE!
MacDonalds or Burger King: Mc Donalds please. Pandu laju dia lajuuuuuuuuuuu!

Single or Group Dates: Dua dua aku okay. Seronok apa keluar couples ramai ramai.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nescafe boleh?
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla pernah letak dadah dalam aiskrim aku, so aku benci Vanilla.
Cappuccino or Coffee: Nescafe lagi sekali boleh? Nescafe ais.

Do you Smoke: Tetttttttttt
Do you Swear: Everyone does.
Do you Sing: All the times ;)
Do you Shower Daily: Aku mandi hari hari pun dia kata aku busuk. So aku malas nak mandi dah.
Have you Been in Love: Paling on love la pernah aku rasa.

Do you want to go to College: I want. Please, i want to make my parents proud of me. Amin.
Do you want to get Married: Aku dah kahwin la. 31st Dec 2010 hari tu. Kenapa tak datang?
Do you belive in yourself: Kadang kadang tak. Aku bukan nya true sangat.
Do you get Motion Sickness: Selalu. Aku suka hangin satu badan.
Do you think you are Attractive: Part mana attractive pun tak tahu la sampai lesbian pun suka aku.
Are you a Health Freak: HELL NO! Ahahahah.
Do you get along with your Parents: Some-times.
Do you like Thunderstorms: TAK! I'm afraid of it.
Do you play an Instrument: Instrument apa kau nak? Semua aku boleh hancurkan.

In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Haram tu haram. Otak aku masih lagi berfungsi.
In the past month have you Smoked: Tettt tettt tetttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Best ke? Nanti lagi kurus aku.
In the past month have you gone on a Date: Ada ke kita date last month buah hati?
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Ada la dua tiga hari lepas, shopping barang sekolah anak.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: Tak ada la sampai sekotak. Perut aku tak buaya.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Ada ada. Fave tu tiap bulan makan.
In the past month have you been on Stage: Ada ada, aku pijak stage sekolah.
In the past month have you been Dumped: Kau ada tinggal aku tak? Tanya sendiri.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Tak ada tak ada. I loike my skin olredi.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Aku curi air adik aku dalam peti ais aku minum hehehehehe.

Ever been Drunk: Love drunk buat gua jatuh.
Ever been called a Tease: Tidak lagi, mungkin esok lusa.
Ever been Beaten up: Ada ada, last hari jumaat lepas. Sedap gua kena lempang, tumbuk semua.
Ever Shoplifted: Belum lagi, teringin.
How do you want to Die: Dalam iman, dalam senyum. Tak buat orang lain sedih. Amin.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Berjaya, ada kerjaya, masih ada iman.
What country would you most like to Visit: Paris, our honeymoon place right bby?

In a Boy/Girl..:

Favourite Eye Color: Kau tengok mata dia, kau dapat jawapan dia.
Favourite Hair Color: Natural sudah, kau tak perlu nak jadi lahanat colour colour rambut. Tak ori tau!
Short or Long Hair: Panjang sedap juga, best nak main tarik tarik. Jangan botak sudah.
Height: Tinggi sikit dari aku dah la. Jangan la pendek dari aku.
Weight: Aku tak peduli, asal kau larat angkat aku sudah.
Best Clothing Style: Yang tak tunjuk boobs kau yang tak seberapa tu. Ada kena tarik jap lagi.

Number of Drugs I have taken: Banyak, nak sikit? Stock banyak lagi ni.
Number of CDs I own: Aku tak kaya nak beli cd, semua aku download dari internet je.
Number of Piercings: A pair, nak lagi kalau boleh. Tapi aku cuak.
Number of Tattoos: Satu, i cross his name across my heart.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Gua tak kira, lelah nak ingat. Tak nak sempit kan otak.

Stay close love,

2011-01-02T13:37:00.004+08:00

Buah hati, satu je aku nak beritahu dekat kau. Dalam banyak banyak benda yang aku nak. Ada satu je benda yang paling aku nak sekarang. Kau nak tahu apa dia? Aku nak kau selalu ada dengan aku. Aku tak nak tengok kau pergi. Aku tak nak kau pergi, sekarang, masa depan mahu pun bila bila. Faham? Benda tu nampak mudah, tetapi buat sekian kalinya amat berat untuk dilakukan. Jangan nak tipu diri aku, jangan nak tipu diri kau dengan mengatakan benda tu mudah. Tak apa, aku tahu. Aku faham. Sudah la. Harap harap dua ribu sebelas lebih baik daripada dua ribu sepuluh. Kalau boleh aku tak nak kecewa lagi. Cukup. Amin.

* Aku tahu aku comel gambar macam ini. Tengok la owner dia siapa la kan.

* Kau tahu maksud tersirat di sebalik gambar ini.

*I hate it when you treat me so nicely that I feel like I'm the best then ignore me the next day and make me realize I was nothing to you.

* Bila la kita nak bebas dari gaduh?

Setahun, one year.

2010-12-30T00:24:00.004+08:00

Setahun sudah berlalu. Dengan erti kata lain, tiga ratus enam puluh lima hari sudah dilalui bersama. Terima kasih, terima kasih atas segala memori yang telah dicurahkan. Cukup manis. Aku nak simpan memori sampai ke sudah. Jangan risau, tak buang punya. Ada ruang, tetap ada ruang. Otak aku masih mempunyai kapasiti untuk menyimpan setiap bait bait kenangan kita. Alahai. Tiga puluh disember dua ribu sembilan, haha malam tu kelakar. Okay dah. Tak perlu rasanya cerita kat sini. Rahsia kita berdua, hihi. Ahah okay apa motif pun tak tahu la awak.

Terima kasih atas segalanya. Terima kasih banyak banyak. Pasti tak dapat saya membalas segala jasa awak. Peluk cium satu kali :-* Rindu awak la. Okthanxbye!

* "Aku nak lupakan kau?jangan harap ah."

* Ingat ni, saya sayang awak tiga ratus enam puluh darjah.

* Tengok ni, Adik aku buat untuk aku. Cuweet tau, i love you foreverlove :')

My very first and last,

2010-12-29T22:57:00.002+08:00

My very first,

FIRST REAL BEST FRIEND: Nur Hawa binti Yassin.

FIRST SCHOOL: Tadika dekat Masjid Negeri Selangor tu.

FIRST CELL PHONE: Tak tahu apa model, tapi Nokia.

FIRST FUNERAL: Owner Ani Sup Utara, never been to any funeral before.

FIRST PET: BIRD ;)

FIRST BIG TRIP: With school? Pulau Pangkor, sumpah terbaik!

FIRST FIGHT: Dengan adik aku la kot.

FIRST CELEBRITY CRUSH: Can't recall.

FIRST TIME OUT OF THE COUNTRY?: Lupaa.

FIRST JOB: Tolong Mak Ngah dekat restoran.

FIRST MYSPACE FRIEND: CAN'T RECALL

My very last,

LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED: I think it's baby.

LAST CAR RIDE: Mama's viva.

LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: Last week, 21st Dec.

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED: Hantu Kak Limah Balik Kampung HAHA my first malay movie that i watch in cinema if i'm not mistaken.

LAST FOOD YOU ATE: Nasi putih, tomyam, daging masak merah serta paprik campur (Y)

LAST ITEM BOUGHT: Tiket ktm balik Shah Alam.

LAST SHIRT WORN: Seed.

LAST PHONE CALL: Foreverlove.

LAST TEXT MESSAGE: Kak Bib, my aunt. Talking about bola HAHA.

LAST KISS: The day he kissed me on my cheek.

LAST THING YOU TOUCHED: "BACKSPACE"

LAST FUNERAL: Owner Ani Sup Utara.

LAST TIME AT THE MALL: Today.

LAST TIME YOU WERE EXCITED FOR SOMETHING: Tadi, dapat call interview kat Levi's HAHAHA.

LAST PERSON YOU SAW: Baby.

LAST THING YOU DRANK: Plain water.

LAST PERSON THAT BROKE YOUR HEART: Dia tahu siapa diri dia, no need to be mention here.

LAST TIME YOU WERE REALLY HONESTLY HAPPY?: AGES AGO!

Wira dan wirawati Negara

2010-12-29T00:43:00.004+08:00

Okay, this entry is specially made for mereka mereka yang akan berangkat ke PLKN. Especially ma forever love. Cool much. Durra juga, Esther juga, Yaya, Siva, Syahira, Aina, Iwan, Syahmi, dan sesiapa sesiapa lagi yang aku lupa dan malas nak menaip nama anda harap semua dalam keadaan baik dan bersedia untuk 'berseronok' di kem PLKN masing masing :)

Okay, this week kena perabih betul betul untuk mereka mereka yang bakal berangkat ke PLKN. Don't worry, Forever love confirm hari hari jumpa. To Durra and Esther, nanti kita jumpa okay. Durra, nanti kita jumpa Ayesha sekali tau. Merajuk dia nanti. Esther, nanti i datang bawa jelly beans muahahaha.

Sure gonna miss you guys! CONFIRM (!) Especially Alya Fatysa. Pergh dik, lepas ni aku nak berdating dengan siapa malam malam? Petang petang nak bergosip dengan siapa? :( Ahha kalau tak, pagi pagi akan dengar suara dia dulu. Lepas tu petang lepak sama. Malam sebelum tidur pun dengar suara dia juga, tak pun at least text. Sumpah macam boyf kan? Well, i'm lesbian now. Jangan la terkezutttt. I suka you, you tak suka i ke? I dah curahkan kasih sayang dekat you, kenapa you tak balas? :'( Okay habis.

WEH! Lepas ni siapa nak otp, lepak, gomol gomol dengan aku doh? Pergh memang la. Mesti bosan gila. Ya Allah, dengan aku penganggur berjaya nya tak ada kerja nak buat hari hari :( Uwaaaaaaaaaa! Aku nak cari kerja la macam ni :( Weh nanti petang petang tak akan aku nak layan tv je? Pergh no more track kan? Sedih doh, ish ish. Nanti aku dah tak dapat dah goodnight. Haih. Benci la macam ni. Kau tak payah la pergi PLKN!

Cepat la spend time banyak banyak. Nanti kau rindu aku susah. Nanti kau habis PLKN kita pergi Bukit Merah okay? Ahaha situ ada la theme park. PLKN kau tak ada theme park! HAHAHA. Bestnyewwwww pergi Bukit Merah. ZOMG tak sabar nohhh haha.

Okay dah, buat mereka yang bakal menjadi wira dan wirawati sepenuh masa selama tiga bulan tu. Tolong jaga diri, jangan nak rindu aku sangat. InsyaAllah aku sihat, pandai pandai la aku bangun kalau jatuh sendiri. Sedih tau dah tak ada orang nak angkat T.T Uwahhh! Okay dah nanti dah habis PLKN beli la cenderahati untuk aku. Tau tau. Agak agak ada hottie hottie sweet ass kat sana jangan la lupa nak hulur. I c0mEyLsZzZ tau kalau pakai baju kelawar. Nampak cuweeet gitu ahhh! Okay sangat tak ada kena mengena. I know.

* Kitorang tahu kitorang c0mEyLsZzZ. Tak payah cakap.

Situation satu.

Boy: Kalau i dapat PLKN macam mana?

Girl: Jangan la pergi *sambil muka sedih*

Boy: Macam mana? Kan wajibbb.

Girl: Okay okay, nanti i mohon dapat sama kem dengan you.

Boy: Ahaha ya laaa.

Merry Christmas

2010-12-25T10:06:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas kepada mereka yang meraikannya. Especially to Esther Teh Sue Hui, Kelvin Lai Kar Young, Dominic Salvio Jude and siapa siapa lagi merapu yang aku lupa nama tapi meraikannya.

Zomg zomg! Aku rasa macam perayaan aku doh. Banyak sangat wish, but too lazy to type it out. If you rajin you call i okay, i cerita from A to Z what i want for this Christmas and new year hehe. *budget ah orang nak call aku* HAHA.

Okay habis. I'm going away. No need to find me, no need to miss me. *budget orang nak cari, nak rindu*

I'm going away for a while, you won't have time to miss me because i've left my heart for you.

* Dear Santa, can I have him for this Christmas? I've being so nice this year :')

* eh baca ni! Cool entry from Kak Eyka ;p

Tiga perkataan :')

2010-12-21T21:34:00.005+08:00

Tiga ratus enam puluh lima hari sudah berlalu.

Manis :') I still can remember how we get to know each other.

How we start our conversation. Ahah how we meet.

Oh i miss that! I still can remember what you wore, what you drink, where we met and everything that happened that day :)

Ahaha where is my BR Chelsea's fan? Haha.

Ahah i won't forget what i did to you that day, hihi i'm sorry :D

Well, thanks for being a part of me. I appreciate that.

* 20th Dec 2010. You own my pipi pau :')

* One in a million - Ne yo.

I love her the way she is,

2010-12-20T15:03:00.003+08:00

" Nur 'Amirah Kamarul Azlan , kawan sepanjang hayat (: "

Thanks Durra Shahirah. You know that i love you right?

Thanks for being such a good friend all this while.

You're there when i need someone.

Iloveyou Mrs Monster.

Hope you happy with Monster :D

Monster, please take a good care of her.

She's precious, you'll realize it one day :')

* Meh baca blog dia, aku suka latest entry. "Love is a journey, not a destination".

All around us,

2010-12-20T13:25:00.008+08:00

Kau rasa tak apa aku rasa? Kau tahu apa aku tak tahu? Well, we're human. We're not perfect, in this world we're made for completing each other. Like how sun and moon, kuah laksa dengan mee serta lelaki dan perempuan :) Mana datang nya kau kalau bukan dari hasil benih lelaki dan perempuan? Jawab sikitttttttttttttt, dah la kena lalu mitosis yang banyak peringkat, meiosis lagi fuhh fuhhh! Dunia ni penuh dengan manusia yang pelbagai ragam, perangai, keinginan serta kemahuan.

Jap, iklan jap. Aku benci facebook, myspace dan seangkatan dengan nya. Kalau kau sedar, banyak merosakkan banyak relationship. Kalau kau sedar la. So aku lebih senang bermain burung biru. Seronok, twitter.com/mirarawr :)

Okay. Aku dah muak, jelik, penat, lali dengan sikap manusia di sekeliling aku. Cukup penat aku nak puaskan hati semua orang tapi tolong beringat, tak ada orang sempurna. Pergi mam kau dengan acah acah sempurna kau tu. Please remind yourself that nobody's perfect.

Sepanjang dua ribu sepuluh ni sumpah penat aku nak puas kan hati semua orang. Dengan mak bapak punya perasaan, kawan kawan punya hati, serta buah hati punya keinginan. Tak apa, aku rela semua tu. Sebab apa? Sebab aku sayang semua, life is short. Enjoy your life while you can.

Bila lagi kita nak merasa hidup di dunia? Hidup ini cuma sekali, so kita enjoy! *bak kata Nora Danish.

Pertama nya, kau! Kau tak perlu nak buat cerita bikin pusing gua punya kepala. Kepala adik gua dah cukup pusing dengan perangai lu! Dan gua dah cukup muak dengan kepoyo-an lu. Alahai, acah acah habis SPM everything gonna be okay? Haktuihhh, before SPM lagi kau dah porak peranda kan hidup adik aku. No women no cry ya bby? Alolololo hebat! Thumbs up (Y) buat lu! Sabar okay adik manis, akak ada. Biar kan romeo "no women no cry" tu tersadai kat situ. Pun boleh la hah tak nak ada perempuan perempuan lain la bagai. Sehabis mungkin kau perdaya adik aku. Tak apa, i know she can get better that you even though she love you so much. She give you love, all you give her is pretend. Fuck you by Lily Allen :) Don't make her fall for you if you don't plan to catch her. Don't say i love you if you don't mean it. Prove it to her man! Action speaks louder that words.

Oh kau juga! Tak mahu tertinggal, gua suka cara lu. Cara lu yang sedikit demi sedikit cuba untuk meng-yakinkan gua yang lu tidak akan kembali kepada dia. Kalau dah nama nya manusia, sikit ke banyak ke pasti ada yang menipu. Acah acah tipu sunat la, tipu apa la. Dah diam, lumrah manusia ada yang menipu, ada yang ditipu. Sehabis mungkin la hah kau kutuk dia la apa la, okay. Aku marah marah juga kat dia, aku kutuk kutuk juga, tapi tak ada la sampai mengeluarkan kata kata dusta. Dah nama pun hati perempuan, mudah layu pabila insan bernama lelaki membuka mulut, menutur ayat ayat manis. Ya, aku tahu tu. Aku pun perempuan, jangan lupa. Tak apa la dik, itu hak kau. Ikut suka mu la, mu nak buat apa. Jangan sampai apa yang kau pernah cakap, pernah sumpah, makan diri kau balik. Aku tak nak jadi macam tu. But, yeah kau sendiri yang dah pilih jalan macam ni. Nak buat macam mana kan? Good luck! Nice to get to know you ;)

Dan kau, cuba sesekali kau berfikiran matang. Ya la, aku tahu la aku pun tak matang mana. Masih juga batak nak main bumper car dekat Sunway Pyramid tu tapi ada ada masa kadang kala kau kena la berlagak matang sekejap. Nasib sekarang dah habis sekolah, dah tak jumpa. Tapi aku mesti akan rindu dengan perangan kau, ahha kadang kadang kau buat aku gelak ha-ha okay. Kelakar di situ. Come on la, penat la aku kalau semua benda aku nak kena ikut telunjuk kau. Sometimes you should be grateful of what you have now, because we're not sure if you still gonna have it in future. Kau ada life kau, aku ada life aku. Be fair. Jangan nak cakap belakang orang sesuka hati, fikir juga perasaan orang lain. Cuba berterima kasih sikit dekat orang orang yang pernah bantu kau, naik kan kau. Ni tidak, kau kutuk derang lagi ada la. Come on la weh! Bosan la aku macam ni, rentak tak best langsung.

Sekarang, aku dah puas, aku rasa cukup dengan apa aku ada sekarang. Alhamdulillah. Aku tak perlukan lebih, aku tak perlu kurang kan mana mana. Aku suka hidup aku sekarang. Cuma itu la, satu je. Aku penat dengan perangai manusia manusia di sekeliling aku. Dah la, tak apa la. Redha, sabar. Itu je la yang aku boleh buat sekarang. Can't wait to further studies and meet new people. I wish that i'll meet better people in future, insyaAllah. Allah always give His best to us. Put your trust on him. Sometimes we put the fault on Him without knowing that He got a better plan for us :') Just give in on Him, love Him like how He love us. Without doubt.

Okay la, penat la nak layan sandiwara korang. Kthanxbye, please don't come again :)

Don't wait for a perfect moment, take the moment and make it perfect.

*Kalau Allah nak ambil nyawa aku cepat pun tak mengapa, senang begitu. Lagi senang aku nak puas kan hati semua orang. But, i'm sure gonna miss my old days. Always do.

Hush hush,

2010-12-10T20:54:00.010+08:00

Alhamdulillah, kalau mengikut kalendar Islam, kita dah masuk Tahun Baru. Alhamdulillah sempat aku merasa tahun baru. Permulaan yang boleh dikatakan menyenangkan. Memberi segaris senyuman di bibir. At least. At least senyum la juga. Terima kasih untuk hari Selasa lepas. Sedap buah tangan tu, sedap mata memandang foto tersebut. Terima kasih sekali lagi.

Isnin lepak track, puas. Selasa lepak mamak, senyum. Rabu lepak rumah, seronok. Khamis lepak Subang, gembira. Terima kasih Isnin Selasa Rabu dan Khamis. Terima kasih Selasa hari tu, terima kasih la sebab kena tarik rambut, kena tumbuk, kena lempang, fuh package aku dapat. Pun boleh la hah! Oh tahniah buat Jumaat. Kau buat aku rasa balik apa yang dah lama aku tak rasa. Yes! Ahah hari ni juga, once again aku demam balik.

Yeay habissssssssssssssssssss.

*Ni dah kenapa pun tak tahu haha.

*Sayang sayang sekalian ni tidur rumah, bangga :D

*Cubaan untuk memerli Foreverlove yang bakal berangkat menjadi wirawati :D

*Keindahan tasik yang tercemar. Jom mancing? HAHA.

* Alya and Nanaaaa :)

*Me and Reena, bby please don't be jealous. I don't cheat on you :)

*Acah acah ambil gambar nak letak kat lesen HAHA.

*Say hi to Barney please :) I want this!

*Strawberry milkshake pilihan hati.

*Adik beradik. Me Reena Alya and Haziq :)

Semalam ada apply kerja. Satu je. Tu pun secara terjah je, tak serious pun. Tengok la, if rajin pergi la kerja. I need to settle down my driving class first. Ini pun tengah berkira kira nak pergi atau tak. Serious malas, but rasa macam rugi if tak ambil sebab kereta 24/7 ada kat rumah haha. Senang nak berjalan. Tengok la dulu macam mana, insyaAllah. Nak cari kawan dulu, maybe dengan Haziq ahha.

Oh yeah, cukup sampai situ. Tak perlu nak terasa hati, sebab untuk pengetahuan kau aku lagi sakit hati. It's not supposed to be hurt this way. I'm hoping for a good memories, not like this. Nevermind, forget about me. She's much important to you, you've prove it to me. Kat situ dah nampak dah. Now i know, now i realised.

Okay, dah potong rambut. Ni la hasilnya. Jeng jeng jengggg!

* Macam ehem ehem kan Alya? -_-" Ish asal la rambut macam ni aku ni? Ahah.

Okay tipu je, ni hah rambut bawuuu.

*Masih panjang, usah risau :)

*You still love her, i can see it in your eyes.

UNTUNG LAAAAAAAAA (!)

2010-12-10T14:10:00.003+08:00

Untung la ada partner bermesra.

Untung la ada kawan nak keluar bersama.

Untung la ada orang nak spend one day bersama.

Untung la ada orang nak gomol gomol.

Untung la ada orang boleh pergi movie sekali.

Untung la ada orang boleh keluar sesama.

AhakzZz...!

Untung habis. Tak ada rugi nya hahhhhhhhh!

Tak payah nak untung untung sangat okay, nanti tak imbang.

Ahaha tak apa la. Kau happy kan. Buat wileksssss je.

Tahniah lerwwww...! Padhok sikittttttttt !

Okay HABIS (!)

A smoke to erase the crave,

2010-12-04T01:29:00.006+08:00

Permulaan December yang kurang memberansangkan. Bagaimana nak harapkan lebih baik dari November kalau permulaan December pun dah terumbang ambing? -_-" Sabar Mira sabar. There must be a silver lining behind all this bby. Be strong. InsyaAllah you can love.

Minggu ni punya exam, Maths Agama Addmaths and Physics. I 'enjoy' answering all the papers. Sangat enjoy, dengan demam nya. Hah memang 'enjoy' la aku jawab. Memang 'enjoy' aku baca buku malam malam. Ahaha. Batuk, demam and selsema. Complete tubuh aku bagi. Ahah. Jawab exam tangan senjuk gila, dah la duduk bawah kipas. Kerja bersin, haha mata stim je jawab paper. Panadol tak payah cakap la kan berapa banyak telan, paling aku benci. Takpe, nak buat macam mana. Dah lepas. Redhaaaa. *buat muka tak bersalah*

Hari tu sebelum masuk bilik exam, masa paper 3 Physics, Yaya ada buat lawak. Cukup simpan situ. Kelakar bila ingat balik. Tersenyum sebentar :') Sesuatu yang tidak diduga menjadi mimpi Yaya. Bercakap mengenai mimpi, hari tu aku ada mimpi. Satu mimpi. Kelakar dan comel. Ahah. I love that. Picnic di sungai. Ahah comel kan? Wishing for that. Nakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! Hah hari tu pergi fitting baju. Nak pakai hujung tahun ni. Nak kahwin, tapi Romeo tak ada. Cancel la baju tuuu -_-" Ahah.

Petang tadi pergi Tasik Shah Alam dengan Foreverlove. Lagi ah memuncak kan Alya? Ahah buka cerita jap pasal picnic. Since too much couple and family picnic there. Cemburu campur berfikir. Dapat ke aku macam tu? Hahhh takpe, jangan letak harapan sangat. Aku tak nak jatuh tersungkur lagi. Aku takut. Kitorang plak 'jogging' pusing satu tasik. Can you imagine how tired i am? Can you imagine how liter sweat i produced? Ahaha. But i had fun, sesekali menghirup angin petang bersama yang tercinta merupakan sesuatu yang manis.

Sangat manis. Ditambah pula dalam kekusutan yang ada, dapat juga tenangkan diri sebentar. Alhamdulillah, terima kasih awak bawa saya pergi tasik.

*SEE! Dah sedia dengan 100plus lagi.

* Apakah doh?

* Motif ; Tasik di belakang.

* Bersantai, duduk, berborak, cuba senyum dengan keadaan sekitar.

* Biarkan lagu 'Baby by Justin Bieber' khas untuk pemanggil tersebut. Tak perlu diubah.

Break me into pieces,

2010-11-30T15:20:00.005+08:00

Hari ini tiga puluh hari bulan november, hari terakhir dalam bulan november.

Bulan yang ke-wahidun wa ishruna. Sepatutnya la kan. Sepatutnya.

Tak baik ambil hak orang lain. Bersyukur dengan apa kita ada.

You choose,

* Have faith in me by ADTR or The wind blows by AAR?

* Never leave the one you love for the one you like. Because, one day the one you like will just leave you for the one they love.

"Apa-Kau-Mencarutttt!"

2010-11-25T23:15:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Hai bertemu kembali kita di dalam rancangan yang paling di sukai ramai di seantero dunia, dalam rancangan apa? Rancangan "Apa-Kau-Mencarutttt!" Yeayyy.

Okay. So how are you the SPM and STPM candidates? Hikhokkk. Thank God i'm still fine. Fuhh syukur ke hadrat Ilahi you know. Disini saya sediakan satu slot dimana saya akan membuat ulasan serba sedikit tentang segala pahit getir yang telah saya lalui dalam menjalani hukuman menjawab SPM di sekolah. Ahaha.

Bahasa Melayu: Sumpah bangun pagi gelabah, malam tu banjir gila semua call letak harapan perghh lek, cool. Bangun awal siap sempat buat solat hajat dengan baca Yassin lagi haha. Sumpah masuk bilik peperiksaan aku berdebar debar. Bahagian A okay, ringkas. Bahagian B aku tulis sumpah panjang sampai lima belas perenggan. Aku tak tahu apa aku mencarut dalam tu. Keluar bilik peperiksaan dengan perasaan aneh kerana aku mampu tulis sepanjang lebar begitu haha. Kertas 2, aku terseliuh sikit dekat Pertarungan Tuah dan Jebat serta Peribahasa. Hentam je.

Bahasa Inggeris: Not bad, thank God i managed to answer all the question nicely. I hate There's a death at the opposite house. I don't really read it so i don't really manage to answer the question perfectly. Grrh. The novel was fine, still under control haha.

Sejarah: Pergh sumpah sangat la !@#$%^&*. Paper 1 susah, tapi mostly jawapan aku sama dengan Farashikin haha, i loikeeee that ;p When it comes to paper 2, sayang seribu kali sayang aku lihat peta tu sekali imbas dalam buku. Hentam apa yang dirasakan betul dan akhirnya aku berjawab. Alhamdulillah. Esei bagi aku boleh tahan la. Ada juga Rancangan Malaya masuk. Memang best la sebab aku tak baca langsung benda alah tu ahah. RIDA la apa la fuhhh.

Okay, kita berehat sebentar bersama kitkat.

Yaaa, anda kembali semula bersama saya dalam rancangannnnnnnnn, "Apa-Kau-Mencarutttt!"

Okay enough, aku tak tahu apa aku mengarut ni.

Ahaha kesian aku kepada Mas Fatin Anisah yang terpaksa menjawab peperiksaan SPM di KPJ SMC sana. Ahah tidak lupa juga kepada Izzat Zulkefly yang dikuarantin pada hari pertama peperiksaan SPM akibat dari menghidap demam campak. Kawan aku yang Mas pula disebabkan oleh jangkitan kuman di paru-paru. Semalam pergi la lawat dia, lepak study sejarah sesama. Dengan Haziq, kami bertiga. Bukan belajar pun, gelak macam cilaka kat ward tu. Ahaha lagi lagi dia duduk bilik sorang. Hmmmm memang best la. Ahah tadi pun pergi lagi. Lepak dengan Nana, Ijat, Ama and Atiq. Well, SMC tu kan akan ditukar kepada AMC. *Azlan's Medical Centre* Muahaha.

Minggu depan sudah bermula "killer-subjects". Aku rasa macam aku dah sedia untuk gali lubang lompat dalam. Ahah. Cuak kebebeh dah aku ni. Segala cuak, nervous, gemuruh, gelabah semua ada. Jangan risau. Harap harap dapat jawab dengan baik, result keluar nanti membanggakan. InsyaAllah, amin. Tinggal lagi 7 hari nak pakai baju sekolah, tinggal lagi 7 subject untuk diharungi. Tinggal lagi 20 paper untuk diisi dengan jawapan yang betul, jitu dan tepat. Tinggal lagi 7 hari untuk pergi sekolah dengan dihantar oleh bapak. Sure gonna miss school's year :') Harap harap semua berjalan dengan lancar sampai aku habis jawab paper pada 15th nanti. Habis je paper EST 2 tu, bulat bulat tu, siap kau. Aku keluar tak ingat dunia haha.

Buat hati hati suci yang mendoakan SPM aku, ucapan ribuan terima kasih hanya mampu ku berikan. Semoga Allah membalas budi baik kalian. Terima kasih. Akan ku cuba untuk memenuhi segala harapan kalian, insyaAllah. Sama sama kita berdoa. Tapi aku sorang usaha kan? Ahaha tak adil! Cehh haha.

Tak sabar nak habis SPM. 15th habis, 16th keluar. 17th bawa diri. Minggu depan nya lagi bawa diri juga. Full pack jadual aku. Nak buat temu janji boleh mula ambil borang sekarang. Aku nak pergi bawa diri lama, tenang kan diri sekejap. Tak salah rasanya. Alien, apa cerita Langkawi kitaa? Ke Genting? Ke PD? Ahaha okay cepat la, i tak sabar niii! I tunggu Getz biru you datang depan rumah, ambil i haha. Abang abang atasan, movie movie jangan dilupakan. Dah janji kan? Ahah tunggu depan TGV tu, nanti i sampai haha. Gadis gadis serta teruna sekalian, overnight kita jangan lupa. Dah deal lama ni. Pilih tempat, pilih masa. Kita bertarung mata. Muahaha. Adik manis, Bali, Cendol, Laksa Thai, Laicikang usah dilupakan. Ada masa, ada peluang, ada kesempatan, aku datang tidur rumah kau. Auwm!

Gonna cut ma very long hair soon. Oh yeah. Sumpah rambut aku panjang macam hantu dah. Few inch left nak sampai pinggang. Panjang kan?! :O Hahhhhhh sekarang dah kurang seorang nak tahan tahan aku untuk tidak memotong rambut. *jap, sedih jap. Okay habis* Ahaha biarkan. Potong rambut biar pendek gila babis. Biar macam lelaki, cool. Baru macho.

Okay, rancangan yang berlangsung tidak sampai sepuluh minit ini telah sampai ke penghujungnya. Semoga kita bertemu kembali dalam rancangannnnnnnnnnn "Apa-Kau-Mencarutttt!" AHAHA.

Sebelum berpisah, dengarkan pesanan dari pihak penaja:

* Tak perlu bersusah payah untuk berbuat baik sekiranya hati tidak ikhlas dalam melaksanakannya.

* Love can fade with time just like the passing summer time. -Sonnet's 18

* You chose lust when you deceived me. -You lost me.

* You may lie to others but not to yourself.

* You are paid to tell truths. Speak with your heart.

*Try dengar lagu Deuces by Chris Brown.